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I firmly believe the weather as of late has been nothing but a pure reflection of my mood and my feeling of self worth.
The worse I feel the worse the weather has been getting.
I feel unwanted. Low. Discouraged. Frustrated. Distanced. Rejected. Hurt. Tired. Out of Control. Empty. Stressed. Afraid. Worried. Insecure.
A day has not gone by this week that I haven't cried. I even cried at work today on the shoulder of a coworker.
I haven't sold anything. We haven't had shit for customers coming in. And the ones that I do get are bad. I'm starting feel hopeless. I'm starting to feel like I'm not going to be able to do this and I'm going to just fail. Again.
I feel very very very worthless right now.
I've been reminded that I'm supposed to schedule some sort of birthday get together. I guess this weekend is as good as any. Anyone up to do something for my birthday? It'll probably just be dinner somewhere. If I hold something this weekend and you want to come please let me know so I can see if enough people are up for going.
The worse I feel the worse the weather has been getting.
I feel unwanted. Low. Discouraged. Frustrated. Distanced. Rejected. Hurt. Tired. Out of Control. Empty. Stressed. Afraid. Worried. Insecure.
A day has not gone by this week that I haven't cried. I even cried at work today on the shoulder of a coworker.
I haven't sold anything. We haven't had shit for customers coming in. And the ones that I do get are bad. I'm starting feel hopeless. I'm starting to feel like I'm not going to be able to do this and I'm going to just fail. Again.
I feel very very very worthless right now.
I've been reminded that I'm supposed to schedule some sort of birthday get together. I guess this weekend is as good as any. Anyone up to do something for my birthday? It'll probably just be dinner somewhere. If I hold something this weekend and you want to come please let me know so I can see if enough people are up for going.
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Date: 2003-11-30 08:48 pm (UTC)Of course I'll be at your birthday bash. We can be miserable together!
Don't think about the job so much right now. Just remember that it's your first week on the floor. It's rainy. It's a shitty economy. It's always hard in the beginning, ESPECIALLY in a sales environment. You only get back half of what you give in your line of work. If you want it all, you've got to be willing to close your eyes take a few leaps. But hey... once you get over that initial hump...
...you're home free. :) Just keep puttin' along... you'll be fine.
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Date: 2003-11-30 09:15 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-30 09:38 pm (UTC)And you're not unwanted, you silly goose. You think I subsidize everyone's coffee habit?
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Date: 2003-11-30 09:44 pm (UTC)but yes.. I do appreciate your fundage of my starbucks addiction... :) I will take you on a shopping spree. You can hold me to that. :) Thanks johanna.. it means a lot to me....
If I have athing this weekend, would you be able to make it?
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Date: 2003-11-30 10:09 pm (UTC)What day were you thinking of?
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Date: 2003-11-30 10:13 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-01 08:01 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-30 10:11 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-30 10:13 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-30 11:16 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-30 11:24 pm (UTC)::hugs:: I like you and I've never met ya.:)
Whenever I do finally get back out to CA we'll have to meet.
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Date: 2003-12-01 07:04 am (UTC)<<<--- sounds absolutely fab!
Date: 2003-12-01 08:42 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-12-01 08:09 pm (UTC)jasminjessicamy favorite girl
my favorite girl in the whole wide world
never will forget the day that
she stole my heart away
jasminjessicamy favorite girl
my favorite girl in the whole wide world
gotta let everybody know that
she's my favorite girl
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Date: 2003-12-02 10:28 am (UTC)