Rain.

[awesomesprout]

I firmly believe the weather as of late has been nothing but a pure reflection of my mood and my feeling of self worth.

The worse I feel the worse the weather has been getting.

I feel unwanted. Low. Discouraged. Frustrated. Distanced. Rejected. Hurt. Tired. Out of Control. Empty. Stressed. Afraid. Worried. Insecure.

A day has not gone by this week that I haven't cried. I even cried at work today on the shoulder of a coworker.

I haven't sold anything. We haven't had shit for customers coming in. And the ones that I do get are bad. I'm starting feel hopeless. I'm starting to feel like I'm not going to be able to do this and I'm going to just fail. Again.

I feel very very very worthless right now.

I've been reminded that I'm supposed to schedule some sort of birthday get together. I guess this weekend is as good as any. Anyone up to do something for my birthday? It'll probably just be dinner somewhere. If I hold something this weekend and you want to come please let me know so I can see if enough people are up for going.

Comments

[my-other-ljname.livejournal.com]

Poor darling...

Of course I'll be at your birthday bash. We can be miserable together!

Don't think about the job so much right now. Just remember that it's your first week on the floor. It's rainy. It's a shitty economy. It's always hard in the beginning, ESPECIALLY in a sales environment. You only get back half of what you give in your line of work. If you want it all, you've got to be willing to close your eyes take a few leaps. But hey... once you get over that initial hump...

...you're home free. :) Just keep puttin' along... you'll be fine.

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

thanks hun.... sorry to hear about your " time " at the party... and yes I'd love for you to come to my bash... :)