Rain.

[awesomesprout]

I firmly believe the weather as of late has been nothing but a pure reflection of my mood and my feeling of self worth.

The worse I feel the worse the weather has been getting.

I feel unwanted. Low. Discouraged. Frustrated. Distanced. Rejected. Hurt. Tired. Out of Control. Empty. Stressed. Afraid. Worried. Insecure.

A day has not gone by this week that I haven't cried. I even cried at work today on the shoulder of a coworker.

I haven't sold anything. We haven't had shit for customers coming in. And the ones that I do get are bad. I'm starting feel hopeless. I'm starting to feel like I'm not going to be able to do this and I'm going to just fail. Again.

I feel very very very worthless right now.

I've been reminded that I'm supposed to schedule some sort of birthday get together. I guess this weekend is as good as any. Anyone up to do something for my birthday? It'll probably just be dinner somewhere. If I hold something this weekend and you want to come please let me know so I can see if enough people are up for going.

Comments

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

Yah I know... I totally bitched at this other sales consultant at my dealership named Marvin who was like " Hey you know what.. I know it's hard.. like my first day.. I sold a car already... " and then went on to tell me how he did it. I was like THANKS MARVIN! THAT TOTALLY helped. Dork. :)

but yes.. I do appreciate your fundage of my starbucks addiction... :) I will take you on a shopping spree. You can hold me to that. :) Thanks johanna.. it means a lot to me....

If I have athing this weekend, would you be able to make it?

[britgeekgrrl.livejournal.com]

I believe so, yes - although my weekends tend to be murky 'til Thursday or so. :)

What day were you thinking of?

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

prolly saturday

[britgeekgrrl.livejournal.com]

Works for me. :)