Rain.

[awesomesprout]

I firmly believe the weather as of late has been nothing but a pure reflection of my mood and my feeling of self worth.

The worse I feel the worse the weather has been getting.

I feel unwanted. Low. Discouraged. Frustrated. Distanced. Rejected. Hurt. Tired. Out of Control. Empty. Stressed. Afraid. Worried. Insecure.

A day has not gone by this week that I haven't cried. I even cried at work today on the shoulder of a coworker.

I haven't sold anything. We haven't had shit for customers coming in. And the ones that I do get are bad. I'm starting feel hopeless. I'm starting to feel like I'm not going to be able to do this and I'm going to just fail. Again.

I feel very very very worthless right now.

I've been reminded that I'm supposed to schedule some sort of birthday get together. I guess this weekend is as good as any. Anyone up to do something for my birthday? It'll probably just be dinner somewhere. If I hold something this weekend and you want to come please let me know so I can see if enough people are up for going.

Comments

[danlum.livejournal.com]

some ol' school for ya.... can we say youth asylum?

jasmin jessica
my favorite girl
my favorite girl in the whole wide world
never will forget the day that
she stole my heart away

jasmin jessica
my favorite girl
my favorite girl in the whole wide world
gotta let everybody know that
she's my favorite girl

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

:: cries :: OH MY GOD!!!! I CANNOT believe you put that song up!!! They never released their album so I never got to buy it... you rule Dan :) You really really do..