I don't know how to label pain.

[awesomesprout]

It's over.

Loren and Mariese are together.

I really just want to be alone for a while. I appreciate any sympathy given in advance and I apologize if I disappear for a while or don't talk to anyone.

The hardest part..... is having the one person who hurt you the most tell you they don't want you to go home.

I had to wait til he was asleep.

He wanted me to stay because he was worried about me driving home. I don't think he understood how much it was tearing me apart to lay there next to him while he slept knowing that it was the last time.

I told him I couldn't see him ever again. He told me he wasn't going to let me leave his life and walk away entirely. I'm too good of a friend.

I told him I didn't know if I still be his friend and that if things changed I'd let him know.

I feel like such a fool.

Comments

Re: I'm not sure...

[(Anonymous)]

i was stupid for coming here. you decided you didn't want to be my friend. you became consumed with other people. why would you want to be my friend now? what i'm trying to get at, i guess, is that i wish we could have been better friends... but obvisouly, if it didn't work out then, it's not going to work out now. and i'm sorry for that. because, then, i valued your relationship. and i wish that you would have remained my friend. oh well. cest le vie.

Re: I'm not sure...

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

Don't you think that's being a bit childish? Did I physically say I didn't want to be your friend anymore? You can't base everything off the past. Live in the past and you'll become to blind to what's happening around you in the present. How do you know we can't still be better friends? You obviously wanted to try again or else you wouldn't have said anything.

Re: I'm not sure...

[(Anonymous)]

yeah, buy my inital post was really harsh. i don't want you to know who i am. and i am a girl. and you don't get along with girls.

Re: I'm not sure...

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

Like honestly. How long ago did you talk to me? And this is being really childish. I don't care how harsh your post was. I care that you're playing games. Is this Jennie Sexton? And if I was right would you even tell me? I'm having a hard enough time dealing with things in my life that I don't need to sit here and try to rack my brain as to who this is. So why don't you just save me the trouble and tell me who you are.

Re: I'm not sure...

[(Anonymous)]

no. i'm not really a girl. i just knew you didn't like girls. i'm a guy and just really dorky. i had the biggest crush on you.

Re: I'm not sure...

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

Why are you doing this? Do you think it's fun to play games with me? You read my journal. You know that I'm having a hard enough time right now that I don't need to be messed with by someone in my past. So I'm going to ask you one last time. Please tell me who you are.

Re: I'm not sure...

[(Anonymous)]

i went to salesian and i am leaving it at that. goodbye.

Re: I'm not sure...

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

Well. That was... uhm. I don't know what that was. I'm sorry you don't feel like you can talk to me or whatever but you can still IM when you find your inner warrior. For now. Because of you. I'm turning off anonymous posting. And I traced your IP address so if I really wanted to find you. I could.

I still think you should just come out with it. Hell if you feel better. e-mail me and tell me.

Dragonreleasedwithen@yahoo.com

Peace.