So now what.....

[awesomesprout]

First off I wanna thank Ethan and Trisha for comin over last night and staying today.. it was really nice to have people around and thanks for helping me move stuff guys! I owe ya'll one :) So now... it's quiet again... I'm cleaning like I'm supposed to be... but now that there's nothing distracting me I'm worried again.. how I'm gonna pay my rent that's due no later than monday? how I'm gonna pay my deposit due next saturday.. how... and it really doesn't help that allen's being a butt... but whatever... there's nothing I can do about that except just back off and stop being myself... I'm gonna talk to him tomorrow... maybe I'm gonna consider getting back together but us still living apart.. we'll see. I doubt he'll say yes.. and with saying that why do I still try and then keep trying even though I know I'm just gonna get hurt.... what's wrong with me... well... I guess I'm gonna clean and try to keep my mind busy. see ya.

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Fighter

[imdanyl.livejournal.com]

First of all, FUCK YEA to your music selection. You know what always makes me feel better? Christina Aguiler'a "Fighter".

When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
'Cause your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Oh, ohh

Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing, the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Second of all, FUCK YEA to Trisha and Ethan for being there for you.

Everything will work out. Patience young grasshopper.

D

Yesterday

[(Anonymous)]

Yesterday...
All my troubles seem so far away
Now it seems as though they're here 2 stay
Oh i believe in yesterday
Suddenly, I am not half the man i am use 2 be
There is a shadow hanging over me
Oh yesterday come suddenly
Why she had 2 go , i don't know
She wouldn't say, she wouldn't say
I said something wrong now i long for yesterday
Yesterday
Love was such a easy game 2 play
Now i need a place to hide away
Oh i believe in yesterday
oh i .... had to go i don't know
she would not say
i said something wrong
how i long for yesterday
yesterday....
Love was a easy game to play
now i need a place to hide away
Oh i believe in yester......day...

waaasss so far away
oh yesterday was far away
And i know i can't turn back
cause yesterday is gone...


i just want to let you know, i will be here for you always, but right now we need a time to cool of me right now and find myself and get back on track with my life.....

<3ME;o)