sigh.

[awesomesprout]

I'm miserable.

I front that I'm happy but I'm just miserable.

I have a great bf who always wants to be there to fix everything and make me happy. I'm in school. I have a great job.

But all I want to do is stay in bed all day and cry.

I'm just angry all the time. And I feel terrible because I keep taking it out on Loren.

I think I'm just going to go away for a little while. Maybe I'll just go to New York or Seattle or something for a few days. Just be by myself in a place where no one knows me.

No one who knows the problems I have or the things I deal with.

Because what would telling them solve? They can't do anything. They can't help. No one can.

It's my world and I have to live in it. And it sucks.

Comments

[britgeekgrrl.livejournal.com]

It sounds like a change of scene might be enjoyable. Look at orbitz for combo hotel/flight specials, maybe?

Although I don't agree with you assertion that "no-one can help me" because how can we if you don't tell us anything?

I'm not saying this to belittle your problems, but it's probably quite likely that whatever internal demons you're wrestling with, they've attacked other people too.

But if you don't want to share, then so be it.

At this point, all I can say is figure out what is making you angry, create a plan to tackle it - by whatever means necessary - and then get started. Oversimple, I know, but the best solutions often are. ;)

[dicedork.livejournal.com]

You know....I don't know you too well, but it might be biochemestry. Have you ever been diagnosed? Clinical depression is as real as the flu when it comes to the chemistry causing the emotions. (I really hate this belief that we can control our emotions in the face of such things.)

[kinkywizard.livejournal.com]

you need a hug and bless that Loren for being there....you can run but you cant hide. Keep up the strong will.

[moonlightgdess.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I know the feeling(s), hun. If you do want to talk, I'm always here... well, unless I'm in class. :)

[27outs.livejournal.com]

getting away might be a good temporary thing, but if you feel this way often, you should talk to a professional. THEY CAN HELP YOU.