It's over....

Well.. it's over... it happened... we broke up... I'm not upset because it's what I wanted... but last night. Was weird. I was taking a bath and writing down my plans for the next few years. He walks in and I start to ask if we're going to continue living together. It went from there. We talked and talked. And I told him. We're gonna be friends or have an open relationship. That's what I wanted. He said he needed time to think. So we were sitting on the sofa. The lights went off. Then it came on. It being the Ambient Dvd for after a long night of partying. The chill music and chill pictures... he smoked some pot. I smoked a clove. I pulled out his fan with the lights in it. I also got my rav'ns... we manipulated colors last night. It was beautiful. We gave eachother rainbows. And then we talked about when we first met. Our first rave. Our first date. How it all began and now how it's all ending. There's still love. But no spark. I think our friendship is going to last forever. I feel it. I just don't think we're meant to be together right now. Not in this time. So I was getting tired. We go into the bedroom. Get under our own comforters like we do every night. He asks me. Are you a demon sent here by my ex girlfriend to taunt me? I said no. We laid on our backs looking at the spongebob designs put off by my lap on the ceiling and held hands. We laughed. We laughed for the first time in a long time. For the first time in a long time we were genuinely happy. he asks me. We can't it always be like this. I don't know I say. We play word association games. We talk. We laugh. We smile. We kiss. We hug. We cry. It's 2am. We sleep. I'm free. I dream.

BLAHHHH!!

ETHAN YOU NEED TO CALL ME!!! I AM SOOO BOREDD!!!!! BLAHHHH!!!! I wanna go to the winchester mystery house or something!!!WAHHHHH!!!! SOMEONE PLEASSEEEE CALL ME!!! SO.... BORED...!!!