It's over....

[awesomesprout]

Well.. it's over... it happened... we broke up... I'm not upset because it's what I wanted... but last night. Was weird. I was taking a bath and writing down my plans for the next few years. He walks in and I start to ask if we're going to continue living together. It went from there. We talked and talked. And I told him. We're gonna be friends or have an open relationship. That's what I wanted. He said he needed time to think. So we were sitting on the sofa. The lights went off. Then it came on. It being the Ambient Dvd for after a long night of partying. The chill music and chill pictures... he smoked some pot. I smoked a clove. I pulled out his fan with the lights in it. I also got my rav'ns... we manipulated colors last night. It was beautiful. We gave eachother rainbows. And then we talked about when we first met. Our first rave. Our first date. How it all began and now how it's all ending. There's still love. But no spark. I think our friendship is going to last forever. I feel it. I just don't think we're meant to be together right now. Not in this time. So I was getting tired. We go into the bedroom. Get under our own comforters like we do every night. He asks me. Are you a demon sent here by my ex girlfriend to taunt me? I said no. We laid on our backs looking at the spongebob designs put off by my lap on the ceiling and held hands. We laughed. We laughed for the first time in a long time. For the first time in a long time we were genuinely happy. he asks me. We can't it always be like this. I don't know I say. We play word association games. We talk. We laugh. We smile. We kiss. We hug. We cry. It's 2am. We sleep. I'm free. I dream.

Comments

[thetrader.livejournal.com]

I thought I wrote a comment here earlier. Maybe I forgot to hit "Post Comment." Lets try again...

It was really poetic how you wrote the whole thing and it sounded like a "good" breakup, if there's ever such a thing. I'm sorry, and I hope things will work out with you.

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

It wasn't bad.... it was just something that had to be done.. and I'm sure it could have gone a lot worse it didn't and it was nice... and I learned a dope as trick with my rav'ns to make someone covered in rainbows so when I get you yours I can show you :) woot woot :)

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[thetrader.livejournal.com]

Wooooooooooot, hahah.

You're taking this very well, that's quite mature. Other people would ramble on and write cheesy "I still love you!" posts on LJ and be all corny-dramatic and ugh, but not you. That's awesome.

I'd love to be rainbow'd.

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

Well like I said it needed to be done... and I had a good feeling we're still gonna be friends for a long time so I'm not looking at it as thought it's ending.. just taking a breather.. and you know I'd love nothing more than to rainbow you! :) hehe

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We what can i do ,
what i can i say ,
i just wanted to say thank you for wonderful times that we have ,
it seem like a dream,
but i sorry i can't be there for you now ,
but someday somewhere in there future,
In a fair, somewhere remember the smell of kettle corn,
the crazy spinng gravatron,
you can remenber little ole'me,
that small spark of happiness in your life at that time,
I will alway keep you in my heart,
I love you alway thank for everything.

<3 ME