" Wonderboy, won't you take me away from the Mucky Muck Man?... " - Wonderboy by Tenacious D.

[awesomesprout]

I think.....


I'm depressed. Again.

Fuck.

It's been a constant downward spiral for me lately and when I hit bottom I cracked again.

There are things I SHOULD be happy about. But... I'm not.

People keep asking me how I'm doing and if I'm ok.

NO! I'M NOT OK!!!

I've shut my brain down completely with the exception of basic thoughts. Eating, sleeping, drinking, pottying, etc.

I just don't want to think anymore. EVER AGAIN.

Thinking is deadly people. It really is. Brains are not gifts, they're weapons that are used against us.

Maybe I'll just get a lobotomy.

" But Jessica, you seemed so happy the last couple of days... what's wrong? We thought you were getting better? "

Ha. You think I can't FEIGN happiness for a few hours?

Please.

Comments

[hailingechoes.livejournal.com]

Blast! I was hoping that happiness was almost in grasp. In good time, milady, all in good time.

[thetrader.livejournal.com]

What exactly IS the problem? I don't mean to be rude or anything... But other than the passing of your father, I think you got it pretty darn lucky right now. You're healthy, you have a good boyfriend, you have a decent living situation going on, you have as good a chance as anyone else to go to college and do your own thing... I dunno... What IS the deal here?