awesomesprout

I think.....

I'm depressed. Again.

Fuck.

It's been a constant downward spiral for me lately and when I hit bottom I cracked again.

There are things I SHOULD be happy about. But... I'm not.

People keep asking me how I'm doing and if I'm ok.

NO! I'M NOT OK!!!

I've shut my brain down completely with the exception of basic thoughts. Eating, sleeping, drinking, pottying, etc.

I just don't want to think anymore. EVER AGAIN.

Thinking is deadly people. It really is. Brains are not gifts, they're weapons that are used against us.

Maybe I'll just get a lobotomy.

" But Jessica, you seemed so happy the last couple of days... what's wrong? We thought you were getting better? "

Ha. You think I can't FEIGN happiness for a few hours?

Please.