awesomesprout

( My lovely adventure.. )

So Loren has an audition for Who wants to be a millionare. He has to fly to NY and take some test. And if they accept him he stays and does the show.

Now mind you.

Loren's already been on Millionare. He just never made it to the actual chair. Only to the outer ring.

I'm debating if I drown my crippling fear of flying in booze and go with him to see NY for a day.

But I dunno.

Money, work, and life has me stressed.

I feel isolated because of my schedule.

Oh well. Maybe con will be the release I need.

I really need to find a regular release. I'm starting to get angrier and angrier over littler and littler things.

And don't tell me sex. It doesn't help.

Sigh.

I just need something.

So I think I may have the money situation for con solved.

I only sold like 2 ebay items. Woo. Go me. But someone on craigslist is looking for RPG books so I may be able to sell the rest to that person if they e-mail me back.

How I solved my problem is this:

I'm working at the Chessex booth in the dealer room at KublaCon on Saturday!! Woo! :) Allll day! Come say hi to me!

And Loren will be there Sunday.

And he and I will be working there on Monday morning to take down the booth and return the merchandise to Berkeley.

So Saturday until 6pm I'll be at Kubla.

Saturday after 6pm until Monday morning I'll be at Fanime.

And then Monday back at Kubla.

WOOOO!! :)

Hey everyone!

I'm doing 17 quickie 3-day auctions on Ebay and I'm only selling RPG books! I'm doing it to raise money for Fanimecon this weekend!!!

Also I will take donations directly to my paypal account too :)

The money I receive from Ebay and donations is the only money I'll have to spend on food, gas, and lodging so please take a look!

Some of the books are rare finds and out of print!

All are reduced in price!!

Take a look! :)

My Auctions!

And for straight out donations ( every penny counts! Or if anyone wants to link to this posting in their journal that would be awesome too! But if not, no worries. )

Hi there.

I'm Jessica...

Yes. I am still alive.

Hard to believe I know..

Mainly I've been working and sleeping.

And more sleeping..

Oh, did I mention sleeping?

Yes, that's right. Sleeping.

My chemistry is SOO fucked up from this job right now.

I sleep damn near all day. But oh well. Tis life.

Saw Star Wars at the Metreon at midnight on weds/thursday.

Not bad. I'm just not that big of a SW geek like Loren.

So my hopefully now set schedule for work is Tuesday, Weds, and Thursday.

YAY.

Signing up for summer classes tonight whilest I work. Prolly speech and p.e. or something.

Other than that. I'm lame. I MAY be working at Kublacon next sun/monday. Which would be nice.

Fanime is next weekend too which I'm stoked about.

Nothing much else going on.

Will be home all this weekend which will be nice. Loren's gonna stay at my place for some much needed homecooking and attention giving to the kitties.

And Keroppi is starting to slowly but surely gain weight.

Peace out :)

So currently it's almost 1am and here I am wide awake at work :)

Sitting in a dimly lit office where one co-worker is about to take a small nap and I'm watching people sleep comfortably.

Quiet times like these, watching people in their most vulnerable states is fascinating.

One patient is a young boy. He's incredibly bright and has a wicked sense of humor. He's so going to be a heartbreaker when he gets older.

Another patient is adjusting her mask that she is wearing for the first time.

The third. Is post surgery for sleep apnea and is sleeping perfectly soundly.

I really really enjoy my job :)

Ok.. maybe a couple of thoughts....

1. At what point do two people who continually say they don't deserve one another finally realize that they do in fact deserve the love they share?

2. Does anyone even still read my journal?

3. If you still read this, say something.

If you don't. Why not defriend me? Are you like me... do you have those set group of people who's ljs you just sort of skim over?

Do yourself the favor and lessen your friends list so I can know who really reads this and who doesn't.

It won't hurt my feelings if you just never got around to taking me off your list.

4. Ryan P. Is the baseball game still on for next weds.?

So things are not bad in my world. They're not totally good but at least I'm getting by.

Did my first 12 hour shift on tuesday night. Slept for 5 hours of it. Do'h! :) The techs were really cool about it though and basically told me they understood because it was my first time. I work in Los Gatos tomorrow. ( Jesus. Talk about a commute. )

I actually got a paycheck which was a pleasant surprise! :) Woo... My meager earnings. All of like 250 bucks for 30 hours of work. Woo.

But it's better than nothing and more than I had. So no complaining here.

Things with Lo Lo are good. ( That's an actual nickname his friends gave him like 5 years ago so I'm not making fun of him, Mike!!! hehehe :) just kiddin. It means crazy in Hawaiian) We're spending like every night ( except the ones I work ) this week together. Which is nice. He called me at like 6:15 am on weds while I was at work because either I forgot to mention it or he forgot I told him that I was working the entire shift.

< phone buzzes >

Me: Hello?

Him: WHERE ARE YOU?!?!!?!?

Me: Uhm... at work?

Him: Oh. Wait. You worked the whole shift?

Me: Yah...

Him: Oh my god! I was so scared! I woke up and you weren't next to me and and :: big sigh, sniffle sniffle ::

Me: Awwww hunny! I'm soooo sorry :( Yah...I'm working the whole shift... fell asleep for a little while though :)

Him: Ok. I miss you. Come home soon.

Me: Ok :) Miss you too. Seeya.

Now THAT. Made my morning :)

Sooo yes. I'm ITCHING to go on a road trip soon. Either like L.A. or fly to Vegas or something. I just need to go on a trip. I know that several other people in my immediate circle are wanting to do the same. I think the feeling is mutual as to doing it when we all get a good hearty paycheck :)

Also, spent a LOVELY day on Tuesday with Alex and Johanna. Had a freakin blast! :) It was a nice change of pace from sitting at home trying to sleep and play on the computer. I was seriously lacking human contact :) They also got to see my kitties and absolutly loved Spooky :) Cuz she's a coy little attention whore that's why :)

Keroppi seems to be doing quite well and either I'm imagining it cuz I'm neurotic or he's actually feeling a little bulkier around his ribs. So that's a good sign. Lo Lo felt it too so I think that he's getting healthier slowly but surely.

It took me a while to do fluids last night because he wasn't ready to lie down yet. So I just acted like I was going to bed and then stuck him when he layed down :) Simple as always :) He almost fell asleep during it too.

It's funny cuz afterwards there's this large squishy mass in his neck from the fluids. And it feels like a boob.

Hehehhehehehe :)

Anywho.

Not much else going on. I wanna go to a museum soon. Maybe this weekend.

Oooo and Johanna's birthday is coming up!! YAYYYYYY :) More SF fun to be had there.

And the Moulin Rouge party is quickly approaching which I'm ecstatic about!

Fun times... funnnnn times. :)

So I'm still not comfortable giving keroppi his fluids.

I can get the needle in but he makes motions like it feels uncomfortable. He doesn't meow or anything so I don't think it hurts.

When when I actually turn on the fluid is when he tries to get away...

And then when I was trying to put on a fresh needle to try again. I Stuck myself in the finger.

The nurse said that it'd be ok if this happens. But that it would just hurt.

And yes. It hurt. A lot.

And I bled. A lot.

So now he still hasn't gotten his fluids. I'm going to have Loren come over tonight and help me because I'm still very freaked out about doing it.

I feel horrible that I can't overcome my fear to help my cat.

If anyone was looking to make a little extra money.

They could sell their Margaret Cho tickets.

I know my cousin who is coming from Korea the day before the show is looking to purchase one and is willing to pay over the original price.

Just a thought...

Loren painted my toenails last night and made BBQ for dinner.. I feel all loved.

:: happy sigh ::