I'm not his muse... he's MINE.

[awesomesprout]

It's 4:44pm.

Listening to Jewel.

Contemplating.

There are things in this world that I will NEVER understand. But for some reason I continue to try to understand them. It's one of those.. " Because it just is.. " situations.. I hate those. Oh well. I said I wasn't going to get angry anymore and I'm not.

So tonight I'm taking my little Keroppi to Alex and Johanna's... :: crosses fingers :: I hope things work out... this is really stressful for me and the quicker it's resolved the better. Sigh... My kitty is like my child. I've already given up two of the three and that was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Fuck. I hate circumstances sometimes. sigh. Oh well. Life goes on.

I love James.. to me... he's the beauty and light that shines through an otherwise dark sky.

He makes me happier than anyone has in a LONG time. Regardless of the drama and other people's bullshit that we had to deal with. In the end. It's me and him. And that's a good thing. Won't be that way forever but for now... it's good...

And no matter how mad I get I just can't but laugh at the stuff he does. Like today... We were at the store and he kept getting little electric shocks from touching things... At one point I was getting really angry cuz A. I hadn't eaten yet. and B. We were snapping at eachother. and I'm just standing there and he kneels down to touch something and he gets zapped.

I kinda just watch... looking pissed... and then it happens... he gets zapped again. He yelps a little bit and then we just sit there staring at eachother and we couldn't help but start laughing. It was great :) Moments like that are what make life wonderful... I tried really hard not laugh but I just couldn't help it... we apologized later for snapping and explained to eachother what we were stressed about.. sigh... happiness.. and yah.. ;) Mucho love was had and henceforth snuggles... :)

oh and here's a note to all of you out there in LJ land. Whenever you happen to be at the store.. ALWAYS BUY CONDOMS!!! :: giggles :: Just even if you aren't in a relationship or having sex or whatever... JUST BUY SOME ANYWAY!! Lord knows you never know when you may be kickin yourself later on cuz you were just at the store and didn't pick any up... it's kinda comical really ;)


Welp... Yah :) there's my little I love james tribute to my hunny.. :) meow :)

Comments

[hailingechoes.livejournal.com]

I ave been thinking about that. I doubt anytime soon (and by soon I don't only mean the next few months, possibly years) that I'll have sex, but none-the-less, I think I should start buying some. when the time comes I will stop because I don't have condoms and concidering the length of the wait... I think I'll be wanting it pretty badly. Further, it just seems wise... (ooh, I hope I don't succumb to the horniness that has been mounting recently, I can't let myself just toss my virginity to the side.