awesomesprout

So yes.. Jessica has begun the worrying again....

I hate this cuz on the one hand I'm uber happy right now and thank whatever is up above for giving me

koga but on the other I'm worried to shit about life issues.

Money:

so first and foremost the money situation. It's always money. I have none and at the moment he has none. It sucks. I need to get a freakin job. Seriously. This is starting to wear me down really fast. I hate being without money. Hate it. So does he. We're both at a point right now where little things make us bicker and there's a lot of stress in the air. But hey, that's life.

I know there's a lot of things upsetting him. god, I wish I could just take away all the pain and the anger and whatever is bothering him and just throw it away. I want him to be happy. But I know I have to be patient until things in our lives get better. There's a lot of work ahead of us and I'm suitin up and getting ready for each painful step. It's all worth it to me. He's worth it to me. Life is worth it to me.

He's done a lot for me in the last week in terms of our relationship and fulfilling my wants and needs. I'm a very lucky girl. I feel a lot happier than I have felt in an unknown amount of time but it's been a long while.

I'm optomisitic of the future and know that no matter what. We'll make it through. Hell. Come this far haven't i? And it's only been a few months. I'm a fighter, always have been, always will be. I have a fire that burns deep in the pit of my gut and it is the spark of determination that keeps me afloat. I want to share that spark with him. And I do. He's worth it.

Well.. now that I've said all the sappy shit I'm gonna say for the day.... moving on...

So yes :) I believe there will be much gaming to be had this eve... Congrats to mah hunny on gettin all his chores done today.... I need to hurry up and plant my butt and life somewhere cuz I'm starting to miss my computer :) :: giggles :: Ohhhh yessss 128 gigs of goodness... ahem.. :: cough cough :: excuse me....

Mikey hun.. I miss you!!! Sorry I didn't call back.. my uncle was on the computer doin stuff so I couldn't get a free phone line... mrow... just be gentle when you throw that Jerry Springer copywrited chair at me, k? :) hehe... :: poke ::

And yes... other than that... life seems to be moving in a lifely fashion as it always does... I need to seriously amp up and do some shit for my v:tm character.. jessica has been lazy and helina is getting pissed off at her for that. No helina.. don't do the entrancement... NOOOOOO!!! Yes Helina? What was that? I'll quit ranting and do more things for you? Great! I'd love to!! :)

Anyways... hope all is well with peoples and peace out mah sniggaz....