So now what.....

[awesomesprout]

First off I wanna thank Ethan and Trisha for comin over last night and staying today.. it was really nice to have people around and thanks for helping me move stuff guys! I owe ya'll one :) So now... it's quiet again... I'm cleaning like I'm supposed to be... but now that there's nothing distracting me I'm worried again.. how I'm gonna pay my rent that's due no later than monday? how I'm gonna pay my deposit due next saturday.. how... and it really doesn't help that allen's being a butt... but whatever... there's nothing I can do about that except just back off and stop being myself... I'm gonna talk to him tomorrow... maybe I'm gonna consider getting back together but us still living apart.. we'll see. I doubt he'll say yes.. and with saying that why do I still try and then keep trying even though I know I'm just gonna get hurt.... what's wrong with me... well... I guess I'm gonna clean and try to keep my mind busy. see ya.