Your heart might stop and your blood won't flow...

[awesomesprout]

Sooooo yes :)

I SHOULD be sleeping right now.

But I'm waiting til noon when I have to call and see if I got callbacks for my audition! Woo :)

Soooo much to do today:

Oh wait.. just looked at my list.. I Guess I don't have that much to do. hehe :)

So no work til friday night. It'll be my first overnighter. 12 hours of fun boys and girls.

Things with the TT ( hehe) have been really good lately. I feel like we're finally normal. No fighting. No bullshit. It's been really smooth. And he's been really supportive during my whole transition to working nights. He's been picking me up from work regardless of what godawful time of night it may be and taking me for food. Things like that. It just feels good.

There was a period where I felt like I was falling out of love with him. I think a lot of it had to do with what happened over the months before he left for Europe and then all the drama that happened while he was there.

We just had a shitty relationship. I worked all the damn time and we never saw eachother. And when we did spend time together it was just to come home from work, eat dinner, and go to bed. We never got to spend weekends together because I worked and he didn't. It was horrible. And I could feel us drifting apart. Hell, I was even starting to consider other people.

But then what happened happened. And then I lost my job. And I think it was a good thing it all happened. It was the wake up call we needed to make a shift.

And a few days ago I realized that I'm fully and utterly in love with him again. And that's a great feeling. And I'm happy finally. I don't have any stupid doubts. I'm not letting my insecurities rule anything. I'm just going with the flow and enjoying it greatly. :)

We've been spending lots of time together because I stay at his place the nights I work and it just feels good because I know now that the time spent isn't about quantity like it used to be, but quality...

And now..



These are from fuido

If you want me to interview you leave a comment asking.

If you want to interview me. Leave a comment with 5 questions....


1) What is one aspect of yourself (physical or mental) that you will never change about yourself?

I will never change my hands. I've always liked my hands and what they're capable of...

2) Describe to me Death Guild in 7 words.

Gothy, colorful, Emily the strange, cheap, different, social, nonjudgemental.

3) 10 years ago, where did you think you would be now?

Dead. Honestly. I used to sit there when I was about 14 and I'd tell people I don't see myself being older. I don't see myself being 25 or becoming an adult.

And if I was an adult, I'd be graduating college as a Marine Biologist and working with dolphins and whales. Because that's what I always wanted to be.


4) What one person or event in your life helped you define who you are?

Ethan. Becuase in all honesty, he was the longest friend I'd ever had. And we always had our ups and downs but he always taught me never to take anyone's shit.

That I was better than that and deserved the best. And tho we don't really talk much now and I'm not as strong as I used to be, I still don't take people's shit or let other people be walked on.

5) Does every new beginning come from some other beginning's end?

It has to. It's a cycle. Because without some sort of end there can never be a beginning. And there can never be life without death.

Comments

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

Mike. It's all in good fun. He knows I call him that. And he said he doesn't care. In fact he was like Why don't you refer to me as SB from now on or Sarcastic Bastard.

I'm sorry it bothers you but to us it's really not a big deal. He knows its a joke. It's not like I call him names behind his back.

But if it will ease your mind more. I'll just go back to his real name. I just thought a nickname would be better because I'm sure everyone LOVES the fact that I talk about Loren so much.

And I think it's swell that you read my journal but why was that the only thing you felt was important enough to comment on.

[mjgaiser.livejournal.com]

If it's in fun thats ok. I wasn't sure if he read your journel or not. If he didn't it appeared kind of mean. Post away... Never mind the guy on the other side of the globe...

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

thanks mike :) Don't worry, I'm not the type to call people names unless they know about it. He doesn't need to read my lj anyway cuz I Tell him everything that's posted :)

[mjgaiser.livejournal.com]

Cool.