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I don't want to be awake right now!! ARG!! Tooo..... Earrrlllyyy....
Whatever. MY fault. I wanted to party last night.
I had fun tho :)
Resolved some communication issues that needed to be solved with a friend.
Glad that's better.
I have to go to school. Come home. Nap. Do as much homework as humanly possible before tomorrow. And make dinner for myself and Megan.
Dress rehearsal is tomorrow for Gyro's. I'm really stoked. But in a way I'm feeling a bunch of different emotions that sort of cropped up last night.
For instance. I began to get the maybe I don't really want to do this anymore feeling. Primaily due to fear I believe. I'm afraid that something will happen physically. Like an injury or something. My knees are starting to warn me that if I don't slow down and stretch more often I'm going to have a big problem. Also, I'm afraid that during performing that I'll hurt myself by trying too hard or something.
But I guess those are just risks I have to take.
Also, for the first time in a LONG time I have NO FREE TIME! I'm not used to this. And I'm feeling slightly overwhelmed. I have this horrible idea that people are gonna abandon me due to my being so busy. That thought bothers me. Like, after the month is through and I'm free again. No one will have time for me anymore. Illogical? Probably.
I know that a lot of my emotions are due to uncertainty and a feeling of being distracted by a new, shiny toy. It's a metaphor. Think about it.
I have to have courage and follow through with the things I've committed to. I know that if I don't finish this month with the force and strength of a thousand suns, I'll not only let myself down but so many other people who have voiced confidence in my abilities.
And on that note. I'm going to go get dressed.
( Cuz I'm sappy. )
Whatever. MY fault. I wanted to party last night.
I had fun tho :)
Resolved some communication issues that needed to be solved with a friend.
Glad that's better.
I have to go to school. Come home. Nap. Do as much homework as humanly possible before tomorrow. And make dinner for myself and Megan.
Dress rehearsal is tomorrow for Gyro's. I'm really stoked. But in a way I'm feeling a bunch of different emotions that sort of cropped up last night.
For instance. I began to get the maybe I don't really want to do this anymore feeling. Primaily due to fear I believe. I'm afraid that something will happen physically. Like an injury or something. My knees are starting to warn me that if I don't slow down and stretch more often I'm going to have a big problem. Also, I'm afraid that during performing that I'll hurt myself by trying too hard or something.
But I guess those are just risks I have to take.
Also, for the first time in a LONG time I have NO FREE TIME! I'm not used to this. And I'm feeling slightly overwhelmed. I have this horrible idea that people are gonna abandon me due to my being so busy. That thought bothers me. Like, after the month is through and I'm free again. No one will have time for me anymore. Illogical? Probably.
I know that a lot of my emotions are due to uncertainty and a feeling of being distracted by a new, shiny toy. It's a metaphor. Think about it.
I have to have courage and follow through with the things I've committed to. I know that if I don't finish this month with the force and strength of a thousand suns, I'll not only let myself down but so many other people who have voiced confidence in my abilities.
And on that note. I'm going to go get dressed.
( Cuz I'm sappy. )
