AHHH! :)

[awesomesprout]

I don't want to be awake right now!! ARG!! Tooo..... Earrrlllyyy....

Whatever. MY fault. I wanted to party last night.

I had fun tho :)

Resolved some communication issues that needed to be solved with a friend.

Glad that's better.

I have to go to school. Come home. Nap. Do as much homework as humanly possible before tomorrow. And make dinner for myself and Megan.

Dress rehearsal is tomorrow for Gyro's. I'm really stoked. But in a way I'm feeling a bunch of different emotions that sort of cropped up last night.

For instance. I began to get the maybe I don't really want to do this anymore feeling. Primaily due to fear I believe. I'm afraid that something will happen physically. Like an injury or something. My knees are starting to warn me that if I don't slow down and stretch more often I'm going to have a big problem. Also, I'm afraid that during performing that I'll hurt myself by trying too hard or something.

But I guess those are just risks I have to take.

Also, for the first time in a LONG time I have NO FREE TIME! I'm not used to this. And I'm feeling slightly overwhelmed. I have this horrible idea that people are gonna abandon me due to my being so busy. That thought bothers me. Like, after the month is through and I'm free again. No one will have time for me anymore. Illogical? Probably.

I know that a lot of my emotions are due to uncertainty and a feeling of being distracted by a new, shiny toy. It's a metaphor. Think about it.

I have to have courage and follow through with the things I've committed to. I know that if I don't finish this month with the force and strength of a thousand suns, I'll not only let myself down but so many other people who have voiced confidence in my abilities.

And on that note. I'm going to go get dressed.



"Boulevard Of Broken Dreams" by Green Day

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...