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I'm sick. God. Fucking. Damnit.

I had THE WORST cramps I have had in a long time this morning. It hurt so bad I became physically sick and threw up. My legs became weak and shaky and I had to lie down for like 15 minutes. It was awful.

So here I am at work. Still buzzing from seeing smokey joe's again last night.

It was sooo fucking good this time. Grr... why does Zu have to be so cute!! Why does he have to be such a damn good singer?!!? Damn him... why does he have to be so closed off and protective of himself. Sigh. Just gotta give it time and see how things play out... Why is it the ONLY thing in life I can't be patient with, is love and relationships? I can wait 40 minutes for slow waiters or waitresses and it won't even phase me. I can stand in long tedious lines at theme parks and smile the entire time. But when it comes anything to do with love or relationships.. I'm like MOOOOOVE FASTER! NOW NOW NOW!!!

I dunno.. it's really frustrating. I get angry with myself for wanting to rush or for being so forward with guys I like. I KNOW it freaks them out. I KNOW it kills my chances.. so why do I do it? Am I just talking to the wrong type of guys or what? sigh.

So yes... Today I work. Then pack like a madwomen. I'm supposed to go to this play but like I don't think I'm gonna make it. So I'm gonna go to the club for a little while to see Bezerk, cuz well.. I told him I'd be there and he's counting on me. And then tomorrow I move...

This is all happening so fast... it's hard to slow down and catch my breath... I have to grab bare necessities and put the rest in storage.

Clothes, toiletries, computer, pet stuff, and food.

Blahh... me sickey. I hate being sick...It makes me all weepy. I cry sooo easily when I'm sick.


Well... I'm sure I'll update more later... tho I don't have much to say... it feels nice to just type...

latas...