The day of fluff is upon us....

Saddle your horses men. WE RIDE!

So like yah.

After last night, I've pretty much decided to keep my posts to the basics of my day and maybe a rant now n then and a list of what I'm up to.

Lemme break it down for ya'll..

Starting tomorrow... Jessica is going to be one busy freak o da industry.

Well at nights anyway. When I get a job? Woo man. You guys will be lucky if you see me AT ALL.

See here's why:

My School Schedule:

Monday- Mythology Class ( English )
Tuesday- German ( Hyper intensive because it only meets one night a week)
Weds.- Drama ( Oh I want to DIE DIE DIEEEE my hair black... )
Thursday- Speech ( Woo morreee english!!)
Friday- Ballroom Dancing ( Say one word and I swear to god... )
Saturday- Hips, thighs and abs. ( Work it. I SAID WORK IT SLAVES!! oh.. oh my god )

Then. When I Get a job. That will probably run what.... 8-5 and all my classes start at 7pm and run till 10pm?

Yah. go me and mah bad self.

NO SLEEP!! NO EATING!! NO UH.... ANYTHING ELSE!!

My life WILL be work and school.

But you know what? I can't FUCKING wait.

I'm soooo freakin excited.

Like today... I went to Target and bought school supplies. Oh my god. I was like... in heaven.

I got a new backpack, pens, pencil, accordian folder thingy, pretty sticky notes, cd sleeves ( shh... no piracy here.. ), notepaper, and other fun stuff!! YAYYYY!! :: dance dance dance ::

ANNNNNDDD I finally picked all of my damn classes so UHHHH!! EAT THAT!!

So now. This is what I have left to do in my hectic ass life:

Clean out my car.
Do Laundry.
Make a character for CAST ASAP.
Buy parking permit.
Register my classes.
Find a job.
Buy Books.
Pick my schedule for DDC.
Get a student ID.
Raise money for DDC ASAP. ( starting to consider the possibility of offering to do odd jobs for people for cash... I SAID ODD!! STOP THINKING DIRTY!! animals... )

And yes. I am a busy little person.

So. :) Wish me luck and I shall be around eventually.

Tomorrow is the beginning of the rest of my life. Prepare to be astounded.

Now... if only I could remember where I put that darn formula for cold fusion... :: ponder ponder :: Oh well... it's not important, right?

Savvy?

So yes. I'm watching Pirates of the Carribean again :)

I SHALL COMMANDEER YOUR uhh.... uhhh.... Oh fuck it. Just give me stuff :) :: puts on cutesy wootsy face ::

Pwease? :)

hehe.. anyways!!

So. like.

School starts today!! YAYYYYY!!! :: does little ravey lightshow dance thingy ::

I'm so excited about drama tomorrow too... I get to see ben! And Poni! And josh!! :)

YAY! :)

I missed acting...

Sigh...

I've gotten my gaming schedule together for DDC. Holy crap. Sleep? What's that. Lordy lordy lordy.... I think I'm gonna hibernate til the 13th. MEaning eat as much food as humanly possibly and then sleep so that when DDC comes I can live off the stored food and be well rested :) THEN! I have class beginning that monday. I'm gonna be so fried.

Anywho! Well.. that was my fluff madness for today soooo peace out mah homiez.

Symbolism. Feelings and emotions are real. Actions aren't.

No animals were harmed in this. It's just a post of emotions and the animal is used as a symbol.

I was once told by someone who affected me more deeply than anyone else ever had, " Sprout: Rail on against the machine. Censor not. "

So I'm not going to censor it this time.

I've censored my thoughts and pain and covered it up with a mask of strength and independance. No longer will I be hushed.

I killed a crow today.

His name was: Warrior der Liebe und der Blindheit zum Leben. It means Warrior of love and blindness to life.

I was minding my own business one sunny day when he entered into my life. It was a fierce and magical time. New feelings. New emotions. New loves. And a new sense of wonderment at such an amazing creature.

But I later came to realize that the situation was that of the bird's feather color. Black.

Things were not the way they seemed to be in the beginning. Rules were broken. Fights were had. Tears were shed. And the love I once felt had started to crumble.

I no longer wanted to play with the crow. He was snippy and painful. His cuts left scars and his caws shot pain through my ears and heart.

I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't be followed by this animal I'd grown to know.

So today. I allowed myself to get close. I allowed my guard to go down and I lured the bird in.

I grabbed him and snapped his neck. He struggled and fought. Bit and cawed. But after a while. The only sound was that of my ragged breathing and my screams.

There was no blood. It was over in a moment. Ha. Moments. He used to caw about how he didn't believe in moments. That life was too short for them. Funny how a moment was all that it took to end it. His life. His moments. And mine.

I took the lifeless creature and gave it a proper burial. This. Is the burial. This story of triumph over anger and pain. This woven tale of death and language.

I have laid my thoughts, feelings, emotions, pains, angers, and other strings tied to this black minion to rest.

Now you may not understand what I'm talking about. Or think I'm cruel for saying such things. But this is for those of you who've offered your advice and for once. I'm taking it.

Now. If you'll excuse me. I appreciate your taking time out to read this. I have to go take care of some..... things.

Be well. And remember. Life is not all about love. It's only a piece to the puzzle which when completed is utter happiness. Where do you focus your attention to pieces? It may be hurting you and others more than you think.

Goodbye small crow.

My horoscope.

Makes ya think, doesn't it?

My horoscope for today:

You can get away with being more forceful now than you usually are, partly because you are in the groove. It's not that you are unconscious, but it may not take a lot of conscious intervention for you to do the right thing at exactly the right time. This isn't about analyzing lots of data and making a practical decision based upon your thinking process. It's about jumping in and doing what feels right. Trust your intuition now over the incoming information. And, as long as you don't abuse it, don't be afraid to enjoy the power.