BLAHHHHHH!!!!

Goddamnit. I'm sick. Blah. No likee beingee sickee... Ok. I will be taking applications for the position of personal nurse to take care of me. Ya know the usual... Spongebaths... feed me medicine... be my foot rest... fluff my pillows...

This job pays : My undivided attention for the duration of my sickness. Cuz let's face it boys and girls. Jessica is po'.

Feel free to use this job on your resume for future job ops.
If I am kept satisfied with your work then I will recommend you highly.

And finally.

Uniform: Male: White briefs and a nurses hat. Females: Low cut and high rise nurses outfit with matching hat. NO EXCEPTIONS!

So yes. Please let the screening process begin :)


hehehehehehheheheheh :: evil grin ::

I'm so bad :) So yes... I'm sick.. and it sucks.... and whine whine whine... Alright. I'm going back to bed now :) hehe :)

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I keep saying I'll believe it when I see it. I ain't never gonna see it, so I ain't never gonna believe it.

Fuck it.

I'm going to die.

I'm going to cut LJ out of my life for good. I'm sick of it. I'm completing plan of action #1 and putting into full effect.

I'm tired of feeling like I have to worry about who's reading my journal so that they can just go and turn around and talk shit about in their journals. Yeah. You know who you are.

I'm tired of the drama. REALLY FUCKING TIRED.

I'm tired of feeling like LJ is some important thing in my life. It's not. It's a computer program journal. That's all it is. Some codes and html. Woo. Isn't THAT amazing.

I just took a long shower and I came to the conclusion that I'm tired of feeling compelled to give a shit about what people are saying about me all because I paid the however much for a year's membership. Fuck it. They can have their money.

In the shower I came to the conclusion that I'm only doing this bullshit to myself and I'm really sick and fucking tired of the pain and the drama and the crying and the anger and all the negativity that stems from LJ that become incorporated into MY life. It's my fucking decision and I'm making it.

I'm taking EVERYONE off my friend's list. I will not post after this. I will not read LJ after this. I will be done with it. Yes it was useful to me when I was going through my panic but now.... now it is nothing more than a machine that produces pain and anger in MY fucking life. I'm leaving. Fucking deal with it.

My contact info is on my profile so if you still wish to talk to me. Feel free. I'm not a hermit. Just empowered.

Goodbye everyone. And let me leave you with this bit of advice:

Don't let what others think about you rule your life. You are the keeper of your throne and everyone else is just merely the keepers of their throne. People talk badly when they feel scared, threatened, or jealous. Be happy with what you've got and enjoy the moments life has to offer. I'm finally just learning this and sadly I've had to deal with a lot of hurt and hurting of others to find this out.

I love you all. I love you James, Missy, Alex, Johanna, Ryan, Mikey, Ethan, Nick, Jason, Allen, Emily, Pepper, Lauren, Dave, Dave W, Bill, Allison, Erika, Joel, Chris, Dmitri, Ginger, Geoff, Simone, and everyone else who's ever read my journal, responded and been effected by what I've had to say. Thanks for noticin my little place in the world. I must leave you now. I need to go and find the life that I have that's been passing me by.


Goodbye.