Bleh.

[awesomesprout]

First off,

Happy birthday to Johanna and Dave!!

Johanna

So. I found out yesterday that if I don't have a miracle happen in the next week or two my grandmother is going to get rid of my car.

If I don't get that miracle I won't have the money for rent and will be kicked out.

Loren's leaving to spend 12 days in Europe with Mariesa in a week and a half.

In a matter of weeks I could have nothing.

I'm really really scared...

I have debts I have bills I have deep and dark shadows that are looming overhead on a daily basis.

I'm finding life to be really overwhelming and I'm having a hard time not being depressed on a daily basis.

I'm doing what I do when I'm depressed and unable to deal. I'm pushing everyone away slowly but surely.

I'm even not wanting to spend time with Loren....

I just wish there was a day where I Didn't find out something else has gone wrong and I don't end up crying myself to sleep.

Comments

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

Ok 1. I don't really understand why you felt the need to respond to my LJ. We are not friends. We don't talk. You are not a part of my life.

2. I've told you before. I cannot survive off of a job that only pays 8.75 an hour.

[velvetnsatin.livejournal.com]

The point of this exercise is that you are complaining in your LJ about not having a job and about needing to pay bills. Well check craigslist and check bayareahelpwanted Those will help. You may not be able to handle such a low paying place however it is something that will help you out till you find something that is better paying. Or else you figure you will lose your place to live and your car and your cell phone.

We may not get along but I don't want to see you homeless. So there are your answers. I am not a heartless bitch and I can't stand to see people I know suffer.