This little snowpea is not so green...

[awesomesprout]

I'm starting to miss hanging out with all my hardcore asian friends...

Like back when I was with Allen we had a big ol group.. I miss the nights of chinatown and eating at like 1am... and stuff like that..

I miss my damn video games :(

I miss DDR most of all... anyone wanna go to an arcade with me? I just need a fix... maybe I'll do that tonight... go play ddr somewhere...

sigh.

I've been feeling more and more burnt out. Like I don't have the umph to want to go out and do things anymore. I'm starting to become more of a hermit.

I call people less and less. I don't really talk to anyone.. Don't really update my journal anymore...

Things just don't excite me. I'm losing my joy in the things that have thrilled me. I'm even considering dropping out of school.. maybe not entirely.. but dropping to the point where I'd probably end up losing my bogw.

Ug. What's happening to me?

I don't eat much anymore.. I've been losing weight.

I can't sum it up any better than to say..

I just don't feel like doing anything anymore. Other than going to work. I just want to sit in my room, watch movies, and do origami all day in my pj's.

help.

Comments

[britgeekgrrl.livejournal.com]

I think you've been burning the candle at both ends a lot, lately. You've been working full time, taking an almost-full load at school and still trying to make time to go clubbing, hang out with your friends, etc. You've been enjoying it, I know. and it's natural to want to do all those things, it just might not be feasible as you get older and more "real world" responsibilities get piled upon you.

I once had a volunteer job that I LOVED. Really, really enjoyed. I happily worked 50+ hours a week for these dudes and didn't care. Then my body crapped out on me. Exhaustion, GI issues, bad sleep, the works. Turns out that there IS such a state as having too much of a good thing, and my doctor made it plain that even if I was happy, I had to cut down, and make a point of having some downtime.

What I'd suggest is this. Take advantage of Loren being gone, and spend the next few days sitting in your room in you PJs. Go to class - in the long run if you drop out, you'll hate yourself for it - but otherwise just CHILL OUT. Treat yourself to some comfort foot, fart around on the computer doing nothing in particular (or watch movies, or whatever). The harsh truth is that, after a certain point, you can't do 20 hour days every day...

Take a step back and breathe for a couple of weeks. You'll feel better - and you'll know it when your feet start itching to get up and go out again.

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

thanks.. I appreciate the advice

[britgeekgrrl.livejournal.com]

*nod* I think you've just worn yourself out and your brain is shutting down in protest. "If you won't prioritize, you won't do anything - mwu-ha-ha!"

[27outs.livejournal.com]

prioritize. You only have so many hours in a day and so much energy. If you waste it on stupid shit, you won't have any left for the stuff you HAVE to to do.

the week is for work, and the weekends are for fun. Don't mix the two too much, or you'll end up in a bad place.

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

I don't mix the two. I do my fun stuff on the weekends and work n school is for the week...

and I do prioritize... it's just I've been running at 110% for the last 2 or so months.

[27outs.livejournal.com]

when was the last weekday you got 8 hours of sleep? you have to take care of yourself.

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

alright alright.. you win :")

[27outs.livejournal.com]

I always Win ;)

seriously, take care of yourself, no one else will.

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

I know..

[27outs.livejournal.com]

also, you miht want to look into your healthcare and see if covers going to talk to someone, if you think this is more than just a situational funk.

Fight it early

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

right now I know it's just situational... and I don't get healthcare til the first of june

[dicedork.livejournal.com]

It's because you're not involved in a rocking LARP.

HEY *I* just happen to run one!

You should totally come check us out.

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

:: smacks forehead :: You're ruthless you LARP nazi :)