Angry?

[awesomesprout]

Angry? Why should I be angry?

I'm the one who broke the rules. I'm the one who assumed something once again. I'm the one who fucked up. I'm angry. FUCK YAH I'm angry.

I'm angry at myself for wanting more than I'm entitled to.

I'm angry at myself for not being someone I should be.

I'm angry at myself for once again not listening.

So then...

Why do I keep doing it?

Maybe it's cuz I never got angry at myself before.



Going Under by Evanescence

now i will tell you what i've done for you
50 thousand tears i've cried
screaming deceiving and bleeding for you
and you still won't hear me
don't want your hand this time i'll save myself
maybe i'll wake up for once
not tormented daily defeated by you
just when i thought i'd reached the bottom
i'm dying again

i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through
i'm going under

blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
so i don't know what's real and what's not
always confusing the thoughts in my head
so i can't trust myself anymore
i'm dying again

i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through

so go on and scream
scream at me i'm so far away
i won't be broken again
i've got to breathe i can't keep going under

Comments

[27outs.livejournal.com]

you're so wrapped up in all the relationship bs, you've lost yourself.

I can't say if it's worth it or not, it's not MY relationship and I don't know the half of it.

every thought, word and action is focused on this drama. You need to concentrate more on yourself and getting yourslef to where you want to be.

You're not a weak, codependent follower imitating a punching bag. But you sure act like one lately.

As your friend , I hope you understand I'm not trying to attack you or hurt you, just tell you what you need to hear that other friends may not tell you.

I hope it can work out for you.