Angry?

[awesomesprout]

Angry? Why should I be angry?

I'm the one who broke the rules. I'm the one who assumed something once again. I'm the one who fucked up. I'm angry. FUCK YAH I'm angry.

I'm angry at myself for wanting more than I'm entitled to.

I'm angry at myself for not being someone I should be.

I'm angry at myself for once again not listening.

So then...

Why do I keep doing it?

Maybe it's cuz I never got angry at myself before.



Going Under by Evanescence

now i will tell you what i've done for you
50 thousand tears i've cried
screaming deceiving and bleeding for you
and you still won't hear me
don't want your hand this time i'll save myself
maybe i'll wake up for once
not tormented daily defeated by you
just when i thought i'd reached the bottom
i'm dying again

i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through
i'm going under

blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
so i don't know what's real and what's not
always confusing the thoughts in my head
so i can't trust myself anymore
i'm dying again

i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through

so go on and scream
scream at me i'm so far away
i won't be broken again
i've got to breathe i can't keep going under

Comments

[britgeekgrrl.livejournal.com]

I'm the one who broke the rules. I'm the one who assumed something once again. I'm the one who fucked up. I'm angry. FUCK YAH I'm angry.
I'm angry at myself for wanting more than I'm entitled to.
I'm angry at myself for not being someone I should be.
I'm angry at myself for once again not listening.

I hope you're simply using some subtle form of satire here, hun, because you are NOT the one who hasn't been listening, who has been making assumptions and wanting more than they're 'entitled' to - and if you really feel that way, I'm a-comin' over with the ClueBat.

I'm starting to wonder why you're sticking around for this ongoing BS... but that's a convo that can wait until we're in person and my temper has cooled down.

[koga.livejournal.com]

Johanna, as much as I love you, you honestly have NO clue to what you are talking about.

AG.

[britgeekgrrl.livejournal.com]

Yah, and so it seems, neither do you some days.

Jessica made an open post, I made a response based on what little I know. You want your side known, then feel free to do so in your journal.

As it is, I'm getting a little sick of hearing that you two have agreed not to talk about the relationship publicly, and then posts like this get made. Both of you are breaking that particular rule, and you both need to keep to it or admit it's been abandoned.