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[awesomesprout]

So I'm just sittin here... missing James. I know I know!! Shut up... no " stop missing your man so much " lectures.

I can't help it.

He makes me so happy. Like for me, in my past relationships, I always wanted men I could control. That way I always got what I wanted and I wasn't the one who'd end up hurt. But it's not like that with James. He thinks for himself. He can't be controlled. He's his own person. And I love him for that.

I used to have to tell my ex's. Hey, argue with me! Don't just go with everything I say, if you have an opinion, say it! I hated them being so passive all the time. Drove me crazy.

But James isn't like that. He's wonderful. He's someone I could see myself having a life with which is something I've never really felt with others. Will Allen, it was more of a conveniance and security issue. Not an issue of love and of wanting to be with that person.

James isn't perfect. And neither am I. We have our problems. And we have things we need to work out with ourselves. And I think if we make a serious effort we can do things that will better ourselves and better our relationship.

He makes me happy. He makes me realize what I've been missing out on. He can make me smile no matter how mad I am. And he's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. I don't think he understands just what he is to me and I wish I had the words to tell him. But I don't. So I try to show him through planned actions and words.

I've learned a lot from James. I also hope I've taught him some things too. I can only see good things in our future and time together and I can't wait to share them with him.

I love you James. I really do. I'll fly with you and we'll fly away...

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[thyroyalmajesty.livejournal.com]

no " stop missing your man so much " lectures

Heh, you won't be getting one from me. Right now I'm sitting here missing my own. :-P

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

:: hug :: Bust out the ice cream and the chick flicks :)