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awesomesprout) wrote2003-08-26 09:13 pm
awesomesprout) wrote2003-08-26 09:13 pm
AHHHHHHH!!! :: screaming ::
Warning: VERY ANGRY POST AHEAD!
Fuck you fuck you FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCCCCKKK YOUUUU!!!
My grandmother is one of the few people in this world who can just say one thing and send me over the edge of calm to furious.
And you know pisses me off more than anything!! When someone is talking to me or arguing with me or whatever.. and I'm obviously pissed off. So they say something and I defend myself and they just say something like " Oh whatever, you're always full of excuses " or " Oh yah Jessica, whatever " or something like that just basically just blows off what I just said.... FUCK YOU!!! Don't EVER fucking blow off what I just said to you. EVER. FUCCCKKK!! God I'm so fucking pissed right now.
I told her just to end the conversation and walk away. I WARNED her to just end the conversation. Did she? Fuck no. In her drunken stupor " ending the conversation " are not words in her vocabulary. EVER. She just kept right on talking. Spewing her bullshit. And I got madder. AND MADDER. And then she got in my face. DO NOT EVER GET IN MY FACE WHEN I'M ANGRY.
I told her to end the fucking conversation. She finally did. FINALLY. Fuck her. I'm a goddamn adult. I don't need her to fucking talk to me like I'm 15 and still in high school. FUCK HER!!
Oh but yes. Cuz we all know, i'm the fucking failure. I'm the one who fucked up. Never her. Never here and her fucking alcoholic ass. Oh ho... yah. That hurt didn't you, bitch. It hurt because you know you're not fucking perfect. You know that you're weak. That you can't even deal with your own stress. Oh? My medication? I went on medication because I DEALT with my problems and issues and it broke me. It was too much. I tried to take on the whole world. I tried to do everything. It fucking broke me. At least I tried. At least I dealt with my shit. And it broke me. And I cannot fucking believe you had the audacity to tell me to go see someone. I went to fucking therapy. Maybe YOU should try therapy. Oh but once again. That would show weakness. Face it. You're the fucking weakest person I know. Yah. You like that one?
So you gave me money. So you gave me food. But did you ever give me encouragement? Love? NO! Nothing. You gave me THINGS. No what I really needed. You treated me like a pet. Basic necessities and ignore me the rest of the time unless I did something you didn't like. Don't like it when it's about you do you? Yah. I have an answer for everything because I'd had the last 21 years to be quiet and let it stew. And now I'm gonna fucking speak. And you. You are going to fucking listen.
Fuck you fuck you FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCCCCKKK YOUUUU!!!
My grandmother is one of the few people in this world who can just say one thing and send me over the edge of calm to furious.
And you know pisses me off more than anything!! When someone is talking to me or arguing with me or whatever.. and I'm obviously pissed off. So they say something and I defend myself and they just say something like " Oh whatever, you're always full of excuses " or " Oh yah Jessica, whatever " or something like that just basically just blows off what I just said.... FUCK YOU!!! Don't EVER fucking blow off what I just said to you. EVER. FUCCCKKK!! God I'm so fucking pissed right now.
I told her just to end the conversation and walk away. I WARNED her to just end the conversation. Did she? Fuck no. In her drunken stupor " ending the conversation " are not words in her vocabulary. EVER. She just kept right on talking. Spewing her bullshit. And I got madder. AND MADDER. And then she got in my face. DO NOT EVER GET IN MY FACE WHEN I'M ANGRY.
I told her to end the fucking conversation. She finally did. FINALLY. Fuck her. I'm a goddamn adult. I don't need her to fucking talk to me like I'm 15 and still in high school. FUCK HER!!
Oh but yes. Cuz we all know, i'm the fucking failure. I'm the one who fucked up. Never her. Never here and her fucking alcoholic ass. Oh ho... yah. That hurt didn't you, bitch. It hurt because you know you're not fucking perfect. You know that you're weak. That you can't even deal with your own stress. Oh? My medication? I went on medication because I DEALT with my problems and issues and it broke me. It was too much. I tried to take on the whole world. I tried to do everything. It fucking broke me. At least I tried. At least I dealt with my shit. And it broke me. And I cannot fucking believe you had the audacity to tell me to go see someone. I went to fucking therapy. Maybe YOU should try therapy. Oh but once again. That would show weakness. Face it. You're the fucking weakest person I know. Yah. You like that one?
So you gave me money. So you gave me food. But did you ever give me encouragement? Love? NO! Nothing. You gave me THINGS. No what I really needed. You treated me like a pet. Basic necessities and ignore me the rest of the time unless I did something you didn't like. Don't like it when it's about you do you? Yah. I have an answer for everything because I'd had the last 21 years to be quiet and let it stew. And now I'm gonna fucking speak. And you. You are going to fucking listen.