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awesomesprout) wrote2005-04-07 09:28 am
awesomesprout) wrote2005-04-07 09:28 am
Yes, I'm alive....
Well here's what's going on with me... a sort of, if you will.
Loren is leaving for Europe today. I won't see him at all except for what I saw of him this morning and what I'll see when I drop off the cd I'm making for his trip.
11 days.
Now. Don't give me this it's ONLY 11 days crap because I'm sick of hearing it. Yesterday, I went into work. I'd just started my period and was already having a horrible morning of sobbing every 10 minutes and being late to everything.
I knew I couldn't sell a car. I was too unstable. The car business is primarily mental and psychological. So if your head isn't in it, then you aren't gonna succeed.
So I told my boss I just couldn't do it. I already was hormonal from my period. And I was totally broken from Loren leaving. He told me to go home and get rest.
He said he understood I was upset. And then he did the thing I hate the most when you tell someone a problem.
He competed by basically saying.. " well your problem sucks but let me tell you why it's not actually that bad by giving you a problem of my own that's much worse. "
He asked how long Loren was going for. I told him it was a couple of weeks.
He was like.. " Oh a couple of weeks? That's nothin! He'll be back before you know it! When my wife and I first got together she used to leave for Ireland for like 2-3 months at a time for educational sabotacals. "
I was like. Thanks John. That's comforting.
See. That's annoying.
This is why I don't tell people my problems.
And last night, Loren and I were supposed to spend the whole night together doing nothing but enjoying eachother's company.
Did that happen? NO.
All the stuff he was SUPPOSED to take care of the previous night he was taking care of for the trip so by the time we got to hang out it was already 9:30 - 10pm. And then we spent a little time together. And then he fell asleep while I was talking about things that were worrying me. I was pissed.
But whatever. Mental note: Talk and then get boyfriend off. He'll be more responsive. Not vice versa.
So as of tonight, I'll be alone until like... monday or tuesday because Brent isn't home from thursday night on.
And I'm TOTALLY broke. Which terrifies me because I have no money for gas or the doctor's appt co-pay I have on Tuesday.
:(
At least I'm ok on food.
I'm tired of being poor.
On monday, I have an appt with Bryman College to look into their X-Ray tech program. I figured if I can't get into the field of polysomnography I'll do that as a backup.
And I bought the kitties some new food. It's some really expensive show cat food and it's made them all really soft and Keroppi feels like he's starting to put a little weight on. So we'll see if that helps. And if it doesn't then I'll take him to the vet.
So that's it for me.
Loren is leaving for Europe today. I won't see him at all except for what I saw of him this morning and what I'll see when I drop off the cd I'm making for his trip.
11 days.
Now. Don't give me this it's ONLY 11 days crap because I'm sick of hearing it. Yesterday, I went into work. I'd just started my period and was already having a horrible morning of sobbing every 10 minutes and being late to everything.
I knew I couldn't sell a car. I was too unstable. The car business is primarily mental and psychological. So if your head isn't in it, then you aren't gonna succeed.
So I told my boss I just couldn't do it. I already was hormonal from my period. And I was totally broken from Loren leaving. He told me to go home and get rest.
He said he understood I was upset. And then he did the thing I hate the most when you tell someone a problem.
He competed by basically saying.. " well your problem sucks but let me tell you why it's not actually that bad by giving you a problem of my own that's much worse. "
He asked how long Loren was going for. I told him it was a couple of weeks.
He was like.. " Oh a couple of weeks? That's nothin! He'll be back before you know it! When my wife and I first got together she used to leave for Ireland for like 2-3 months at a time for educational sabotacals. "
I was like. Thanks John. That's comforting.
See. That's annoying.
This is why I don't tell people my problems.
And last night, Loren and I were supposed to spend the whole night together doing nothing but enjoying eachother's company.
Did that happen? NO.
All the stuff he was SUPPOSED to take care of the previous night he was taking care of for the trip so by the time we got to hang out it was already 9:30 - 10pm. And then we spent a little time together. And then he fell asleep while I was talking about things that were worrying me. I was pissed.
But whatever. Mental note: Talk and then get boyfriend off. He'll be more responsive. Not vice versa.
So as of tonight, I'll be alone until like... monday or tuesday because Brent isn't home from thursday night on.
And I'm TOTALLY broke. Which terrifies me because I have no money for gas or the doctor's appt co-pay I have on Tuesday.
:(
At least I'm ok on food.
I'm tired of being poor.
On monday, I have an appt with Bryman College to look into their X-Ray tech program. I figured if I can't get into the field of polysomnography I'll do that as a backup.
And I bought the kitties some new food. It's some really expensive show cat food and it's made them all really soft and Keroppi feels like he's starting to put a little weight on. So we'll see if that helps. And if it doesn't then I'll take him to the vet.
So that's it for me.