It's Godzirra!! OH NO!! GODZIRRA!

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Welllllllll glad you asked boys and girls. First off I'd like to say:

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! I HATE CRAMPS!!!! AHHHHHHHH!! HURTEY!!

Ok.

Ahem.

I feel better. Do you?

So like I've been here and there doing this and that.

Mainly been with Loren.

Yesterday we slept in. Went to brunch at Marie Callendar's. And let me just say something about that little experience. I felt so godawfully overweight and depressed from being there I don't think I'll EVER eat there again. It was NOTHING but overweight white trash families. I just felt gross.

More about my feelings on my weight later.

Then we went to San Jose for the San Jose Auto Show.

Oh my god. What a waste of 18 bucks. Not the mention the 7 bucks we paid for the smoothie we got. Jesus. Like literally I just was totally disappointed. We stayed there for like maybe an hour and just walked around. Saw a couple of cars I liked but that was it. I knew more about the damn cars that were there already than I actually learned.

But anyway. Hopefully the SF one will be better this year because they'll have the 06 models. Woo :)

Wanna a few inside secrets about the new honda body styles coming out? Lemme kno. I got the skinny.

So ok. Then we went to the Outlets in Gilroy. Loren wanted to go to the Nike outlet because I got him an $85 gift certificate for Nike for Christmas and he figured he could get like 2 pairs of shoes instead of one for that much.

We stopped by the Sprint store to pay his bill first and OH MY FUH-REAKING GOD! The HOTTEST guy helped us. His name was Matt and he was like BUFF and had brown hair the most BEAUTIFUL blue eyes I'd ever seen. I was like HUBBA HUBBA!!! So Loren of course rolled his eyes and was like yes Jessica. He was a good looking guy. We're going now. :)

So we farted around the nike store for a while and he bought a shirt, a pair of shoes, and a new backpack for me for swimming :) It's blue and it can hold wet things :) I feel loved. :)

We wandered over to the Coach outlet store and the Sanrio outlet store just to look around. And then we headed home after grabbing some starbucks.

While driving home I was talking about how depressed I Was about how I looked and how frustrated I was at the choices he and I were both making food-wise.

I told him we needed to start grocery shopping and to stop eating out. And how I felt just gross all the time because of my weight. And that I was so excited about the fact that I start swimming next monday.

And like. I told him that everyday at least once a day the thought and fear that I could potentially have a heartattack passes through my head. And that sometimes I'm scared to go to sleep because I'm afraid I won't wake up.

And how whenever I dream, I'm ALWAYS skinny in my dreams.

I was crying by the time I got home.

We got into my apartment and I was walking over to my stuff so I could pack and we could go and I grabbed him and gave him a hug. He looked me in the eyes and said. " Hey. Don't be upset. I think you're pretty. I really do. " and he kissed me.

That made me feel really good.

We went back to his place. Ate a homecooked and healthy meal. Watched chronicles of riddick. He told me what he thought was pretty about me. My eyes, my nose, and my lips. And we went to sleep.

It was a good day :)

Other than that I've literally just been hanging out at home with myself, sarah, or Loren. And working.

School starts next monday and that's my life :)



Also, Johanna? Deathguild? Didja get my comment?