Blah.

I kinda fuckin hate most of everything about my life.

The good things I have right now going for me are:

School ( although.. if I can't change my schedule of classes for next term, I'm gonna be hatin' life because my job situation is going to be shit. )

My friends.

My family.

My rat and fish.

And the fact that deep down.... I know that in the end. All the heartache, stress, frustration, work, etc. will all pay off.

Now.. whether or not... I'll actually be able to hang on to that and use it as my guiding strength is the actual challenge.

All I know is that right now. I'm miserable. I'm stressed out. I'm feeling very alone. I'm feeling very helpless. I'm feeling like a failure in a lot of ways. And I'm very... very scared.

:(