well then.

Dear Jessica,

Here's the thing.

You ARE a good person. People DO like you. You are beautiful. You do have friends. You are better than the drama. School wasn't a bad idea. You will be able to be successful. You are smart enough. You are talented enough. You are capable of moving on. You will be strong enough. And you will learn from this.

Just please take better care of yourself and everything will be ok.

More sleep. More food.

Remember... smile.

You look kinda pissy when you don't and then that makes people not want to talk to you.

And you're better than any of that drama. No matter how much you may miss him.

I still love you. Never forget that, ok? Even if you've ignored me. I've still always been there for you. And I always will be.

And Disneyland may not happen. Don't be disappointed. Just remember that things happen for a reason.

Stay confident.

This too shall pass.

Love always,

Jessica

P.S.

And no... the UPS guy doesn't think you're a dork for crying. :) He just admitted he's a cryer too :)

Blah.

I say Blah.

It's raining ( yay wash my car oh downpour! ) and I wore flipflops today.

I just got home from school.

When I lay down and end my day it'll have been approx. a 15 hour day. Oh.. and that was on about 4 hours of sleep.

Got homework done.

That's good, right?

I'm still coughing a lot and I just wish it would go away.

I'm going to bed.

Goodnight.