Your heart might stop and your blood won't flow...

Sooooo yes :)

I SHOULD be sleeping right now.

But I'm waiting til noon when I have to call and see if I got callbacks for my audition! Woo :)

Soooo much to do today:

Oh wait.. just looked at my list.. I Guess I don't have that much to do. hehe :)

So no work til friday night. It'll be my first overnighter. 12 hours of fun boys and girls.

Things with the TT ( hehe) have been really good lately. I feel like we're finally normal. No fighting. No bullshit. It's been really smooth. And he's been really supportive during my whole transition to working nights. He's been picking me up from work regardless of what godawful time of night it may be and taking me for food. Things like that. It just feels good.

There was a period where I felt like I was falling out of love with him. I think a lot of it had to do with what happened over the months before he left for Europe and then all the drama that happened while he was there.

We just had a shitty relationship. I worked all the damn time and we never saw eachother. And when we did spend time together it was just to come home from work, eat dinner, and go to bed. We never got to spend weekends together because I worked and he didn't. It was horrible. And I could feel us drifting apart. Hell, I was even starting to consider other people.

But then what happened happened. And then I lost my job. And I think it was a good thing it all happened. It was the wake up call we needed to make a shift.

And a few days ago I realized that I'm fully and utterly in love with him again. And that's a great feeling. And I'm happy finally. I don't have any stupid doubts. I'm not letting my insecurities rule anything. I'm just going with the flow and enjoying it greatly. :)

We've been spending lots of time together because I stay at his place the nights I work and it just feels good because I know now that the time spent isn't about quantity like it used to be, but quality...

And now..

( Some interview questions... )

Additional....

Oooo I almost forgot... tonight I'm going to learn how to weld :)

Callbacks.

I didn't get called back for another audition with Kaiser.

Oh well.

Makes my life MUCH easier.

So now I 'm going to register for classes for summer and start looking for a possible part-time day job.

Yay :)

Ok. That's odd.

So I e-mailed my boss asking her when I was working next week, letting her know I was planning on staying the whole 12 hour shift from now on, that I was working on my sleep schedule, etc.

And then I get this e-mail back:

Hi Jessica,

You do not need to go to San. Fran on Fri of this week, as we will be
interviewing some other candidates. I will let you know about your
schedule
for next week as soon as I find out.

Working on your sleep schedule is a good idea.

Thanks.

So I responded with ( first an e-mail letting her know that's fine):

Hi Tara,

Sorry to bug you again.

I just noticed you had said you were interviewing some
other people and I wanted to see if everything was ok
with my work or if you're interviewing other people
for the job I am training for.

Thanks!

Jessica


So like... should I be worried about this? I haven't done anything that I would think would be worthy of me being let go. And they haven't said anything.

So uhm yah.

Am I being overly paranoid and reading way too much into it?