sigh.

I'm miserable.

I front that I'm happy but I'm just miserable.

I have a great bf who always wants to be there to fix everything and make me happy. I'm in school. I have a great job.

But all I want to do is stay in bed all day and cry.

I'm just angry all the time. And I feel terrible because I keep taking it out on Loren.

I think I'm just going to go away for a little while. Maybe I'll just go to New York or Seattle or something for a few days. Just be by myself in a place where no one knows me.

No one who knows the problems I have or the things I deal with.

Because what would telling them solve? They can't do anything. They can't help. No one can.

It's my world and I have to live in it. And it sucks.

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With what little free time I have everyday....

I'm going to do bikram yoga.

It's convenient because it's across the street from my work and it'll give me time to be alone.

I don't know if I mentioned in my last entry. But I dropped both of my swimming classes. It was too much and I was not sleeping enough.