So....

I had an hour and a half long talk with Loren this morning on the phone. We discussed this whole relationship issue. We talked about the last nine months. I put the entire mariese thing in perspective by talking about everything she did to him.

Etc.etc.etc.

Then I was telling him how I'm worried about him not wanting to be with me.

Then I finally realized something.

Something he'd said to me about a month and a half ago.

Here's the conversation.

Me: " So ok. Say your deadline comes and goes and she doesn't e-mail, call or have any contact with you. You take your time to get over her like you said. What would prevent you from having a relationship with me? "

Him: " Death. "

So I asked him if that was still true.

He said it was.

And all of a sudden it was like all this weight had lifted off of me and I realized that I was worrying over nothing.

He does want to be with me and I'm stressing like a psychopath over nothing.

I'll know by the end of the week.

Sigh.

I suck sometimes. But I am after all.. only human.

It'll be interested to see what happens.