My life.

So.. what's been happening with me lately?

Here's what's been happenin with me lately...


Essentially I've been spending Loren's last few days in the U.S. with him, trying to get in as much time as possible considering what could happen in Europe.

What I mean is this.

Loren has decided he's going to get Mariese's final answer about their relationship status while he's in Europe these next 12 days. He knows this will likely be his last opportunity without having to wait for her to get back that he'll have to get an answer.

I told him if they get into a relationship that I can't see him anymore. Or at least for a good long while because it would just be way too hard. I've invested a lot into this emotionally and I'm going to need some time to get over it.

I haven't liked anyone as much I like Loren since I met Allen. And before allen no one compared.

So yah. And now ladies and gentlemen... we wait.

But whatever happens is going to happen and we deal and move on.

I'm truthfully just glad at this point that a decision is going to be made. The wait has been really hard.

In other news...

I no longer have my car. I gave it up to my grandma who just got everything done to it that needs to be done and is getting ready to sell it.

I have her car now.

Still no job but I took a break from the search for few days to be with Loren. Back to searching tomorrow or monday.

Finally started organizing my room here in Antioch and when that's done, going to tackle the old apartment and finally get my kitty. I'd like to do that by tomorrow.

Other than that... not much going on with me.

Oh! Johanna, I have a present for you that Loren left with me before he left for Europe for your birthday. Remind me to give it to you when I see you next.

Well... in these next two weeks I'm going to look for a job, start my new eating plan, and get my life organized.

JASON BIGGS!! WHEN ARE YOU GONNA DO MY MYSPACE PROFILE?!?! :)

p.s.

Today is the one year anniversary of my dad's passing.