Eh. Update..

So I just got home about 40 minutes ago.

Went to faith without eating because we were running late.

Didn't make it in before the guestlist closed. OH well.

Ethan answered a gay trivia question and got into the club for free.

I had to pay. Eh.

I told myself I would not leave until I worked up a good sweat.

Danced like crazy.

Watched the Drag Races.

Stole a blue beachball with stars on it that was one of many floating around the crowd.

Went to denny's in san leandro after the club. ( sigh... memories... )

Went to my p.o. box.

Then came back to Eric's where i'm staying again because I'm too tired to drive home.

I'm really really tired. And my emotions are starting to drain whatever is left in me. so before I do something rash and/or stupid. I'm just gonna go to sleep and deal with the world tomorrow.

Laundry and Ryan's game tomorrow.

I love you, James...

" Why don't you bring it on? " - Cool Baby by Dj HMX

Ok so first off this is how this post is gonna work. I'm going to make a small tribute. I'm gonna write my thoughts on Attention and then my thoughts on life priorities. The tribute is short and will be without a cut. The subjects following will have their own cuts.

* NOTE * Turn off your defensive meters because this isn't about anyone in particular. This isn't all about me. This isn't about my relationship. * NOTE *

My tribute.

I'd just like to say that I was reminded last night why I LOVE gay asian bois. Oh my god. Just. THEY ARE SO HOT!! Even the thuggish ones in the hip-hop room were like melt where I'm standing gorgeous. Oh man. I can't even begin to tell you. Oh wait. I just did. Ok, I'm done.

( Attention. Random thoughts.  )

( Priorities. How many of us have them? )

So. Anyways. I'm drained after all that. I need food. And I just need to stop thinking for a while...

random thoughts...

I've learned that when you look at love. And try too hard to control it. Understand it. Analyze it. And question it. It weakens. It becomes thin from too many samples being taken from it for evaluation under the microscope of questions and doubt. It should just be enjoyed for what it is. It can become strong again and thick but it needs to be left alone and looked at for what it is. Chaos. Excitement. Fun. Enjoyment. I'm done analyzing and trying to understand. I'm just going to let love heal, thicken, and become strong again.