" Here with you it's perfect... it's all I ever wanted... " - The Cure..

So.. this is how this is gonna work... First. I'm gonna start with the bad stuff... then I'm gonna lighten stuff up with the good... don't feel like readin mah shit? Scroll down to the good :) It's Good SHIT!!! :) hehe... anyways ;) On with the show...


The Bad Shit:
So let's start with the karma filled one... so I spent about an hour today writing this amazing post... what happens? Power failure. Deleted. Allll of it. Goddamnit. Oh well.

So I was driving to work today. And I was listening to like one of my favorite trance cds.. and some jackass and his friends in a ( queer ass lookin yellow ) pickup truck come up beside me and they're totally makin fun of my music. I have sunglasses on so they don't realize I'm looking at them. But I swear to god if by some chance in hell I ever see them again. They make fun of my music again.. I break their legs. Do NOT ever make fun of my fuckin music unless I know you're joking and don't mean it maliciously. I don't take offense to many things but that is one of the few that pisses me off. Ignorance. Fucking losers.

So then. I get to work. And the power goes out 2 minutes before I walk in the door. I guess someone's car ran into a powerline or something and a black was caused in San Leandro. We had a generator so the store stayed open. Then. The generator blew out. It was pitch black in the store. We evacuated the customers and locked the doors. So finally after like.. everyone stopped yelling at me like it was my fault and calmed the hell down... the generator fixer guy came and gave us 10 percent power for the rest of the night. Yay us.

So I'm like sitting in my dark little operator's booth doing almost nothing when I see this big grody spider ( erg, hate spiders ) And I'm like squealing and stuff.. so I call my manager to come back there and kill it and he wouldn't So I called one of the other big manly men on the sales floor to kill it. So they come back there and kill it while at the same time making fun of me and I'm squealing like crazy so they take the dead spider and like chase me around with it.. I Was like AHHHHHHHHH!!!! :: run run run :: then they threw it away... those bastards...

Tomorrow I get to do god knows how many hours of laundry. I have like 5 or 6 garbage bags FULL of clothes that I get to wash tomorrow... woo! :) hehe...


And now... the Good Shit

I got a hell of a lot of reading done in my V:TM book today cuz of the blackout...And I've decided on a clan now... sniffy.. all the ones I liked I can't do so I've decided to go with Tremere... mwahahha :) More on that... later.

I'm finally all moved!! Yay!! No more stuck up bitchy roommates to deal with... no more stupid people... fuck I hated my last two sets of roommates... but no longer do I have to deal with their shit...

So I'm about 95% medication free. YES!! I only get the zaps now if I'm hungry and tired... I think I got lucky :: knock on wood :: as far as the withdrawel symptoms... but I hope anyone else I know who has to ever deal with this knows that you just have to be patient, strong and know that people like me are here to help and be by your side.... holding your hand all night if you're scared... just ask..

I have Cable Internet!!! YAYYY!!! :)

And now... my thoughts on CAST.
It... fucking... ROCKED!!! Oh my god... I had so much fun!! Seriously... my kind of people... I haven't had that much fun with a group of people in a lonnnnggggg time :) I feel like I was wanted. Like people enjoyed me being there and benefitted from it. I enjoyed meeting new people and seeing the one that I already knew. I felt liked and I just had an amazing time. I learned so much too... I can't wait to get in and start playing in a few weeks.. It'll give me adequate time to develop my character... I have an idea... and a name.. and a description... more details to come later :) Ooooo you know you like the antici-( SAY IT!!! SSAAAAAYYYY ITTTT!!! ) PATION!! ( woo.. rocky flash back ) Don't worry... you won't be disappointed... you may even be a little.... scared.

So after CAST we went to Denny's... Oh my god... does heaven ever end? I had just as much fun there... even with the straw - wrapper shooting war that went on... I had sooo much fun... and the company was an added plus...

We finally went home and said our goodbyes...and I got my own special one...more on that later... and I drove home with the biggest grin on my face... it was beautiful..

So.. I got to give koga his teddy bear... he seemed to really like it... See I didn't write about it in my journal.. 1. cuz I didn't have time and 2. cuz he reads it.. so it woulda killed the surprise... But for those of you who would like to know... I went to Teddy Crafters at Stoneridge ( and for those of you who know me, you know that only special people get teddy bears from me ) mall... I got the " boy " version of the last bear I got... which was the true blue bear. This is the hunny bear. He's just a normal teddy bear who's got honey colored fur. So then I went and made a wish on his blue heart and put it inside him. Then I found a 3 piece suit and dressed him up. He was born as Sasha the Ventrue bear. See... Sasha is koga's character in Vampire.. and Ventrue is the clan he belongs to... So I brought the bear to cast after dropping a few unrevealing hints about a surprise in an e-mail to sasha himself :) So.. I gave him the bear... and he really really liked it... I was so happy... I truthfully wasn't sure how he'd take it. Cuz I was 50/50 on the whole thing... on half was hoping and praying he'd like the bear and be all surprised and happy about it... the other half was worried sick that I'd give it to him and tho he'd like it... he'd be like scared off or something... I dunno... I worry too much sometimes I think...

So yes... He liked it... :) I was so happy to see how much he enjoyed little Sasha :) and the funny thing was... Little Sasha's outfit looked almost exactly like big Sasha's outfit :) I was like oh my... :) hehehehe.... So tomorrow... we're gonna hang out.. and no.. I'm not referring to the bear... :) I'm looking forward to it.. and hey... folding laundry or not... quality time is still quality time... :) hehe... It's amazing how.. without words or even just a few words.. someone can.. in one instant make you feel like the most important person in the world... I don't wanna put all the details here.. but if you would like to know more... and I feel you're worthy :) Shoot me an e-mail.. I might just grace you... now I know who the only person is that's gonna e-mail me :) but that's fine all the same :) hehehe... God I swear... you're more like my girlfriend sometimes Mikey... sheesh :) Like.. oh my god.. ;) hahah...

More good stuff... I finally got my ass back to using my DJ'ing machine and I made a mix.. it's not a big mix.. mebbe about 10 minutes long but it's my first.. if I can figure out how to turn it into an mp3.. I'll do that and send it to people who wanna hear it :)

( sidenote ) Oh my god.. I almost just died... like I was trying to mess with the above file and it opened with the proggie I used to make it and it was at the full volume of my speakers.. I was like AAHHHHHH!!! :: frantically trying to turn it down :: Finally I just had to shut off the whole subwoofer/speaker system and wait for the proggie to stop loading so I could turn it off... that was scary.. I prolly just pissed off all of Rodeo, California... SORRY ALL!!! MY BAD! :: kicks computer and winces back in fear of the volume turning up again ::

And now the Shit I want...

Basically.. I want a massage.... a good one... and not a rough one.. a nice.. gentle one... I'm sore.. and it would feel so freakin good*...

*This offer void for anyone outside the Bay Area of California... ( Sorry Mikey :0 ) )


And that folks.. is it.

Stolen from koga

( My sickeningly long surveys which have been cut due to popular request :) I WAS TIRED!!! SHEESH!! :: grumble grumble cut cut grumble :: hehe...  )