failure....

I've failed. I'm being kicked out of my place in pacifica. I have to move back in with my grandma. I hope she lets me keep my puppy. Was I just born to fail? What is the little broken thing inside my brain that causes me to do the things I do and to make the stupid choices I make. Fuck. What's wrong with me? If I'm not talkative for a while please forgive me. I'm going to be reclusive for a while. I just need to be alone. Ha. Alone. Loniless is what drove me to live here in the first place. Fuck.

There is a god... or something out there...

I'm staying in pacifica.. My grandma should be considered for sainthood. She's amazing. She puts up with all my shit and still helps me out. So. The puppy :0 ) who my grandma loves slept on my lap/arm the whole way home and now he's still sleeping :) haha... his name is hansel... he's 3.75 months old. and cute as a button... sorta looks like a little beagle :) Welp... thanks all of you guys for your support and yay for grandma's! :0