Resolution. Temporary or not. It's something.

[awesomesprout]

I have been offered by Johanna and Alex a place to live for a month. Which I am more grateful than I can express in words to them for.

I'm going to work my ass off to find a place asap and not burdan them for too long. I feel bad enough as it is having to ask. But unfortunately since I haven't gotten paid yet I don't have money to put down as deposit for any places.

Craigslist.org is offering some really good ideas and hopefully I can get into one relatively shortly.

Life has turned around and given me a huge kick in the ass. I have to accept and work with my options. I appreciate everyone who's helped me thusfar and who will help me in the future. Your efforts do not go unnoticed nor are they forgotten.

Things in life don't always go according to a plan. And you have to learn to adjust, adapt, and take the next best route. That's what I'm doing now. My life has taken a joltingly new path and I'm patching myself quickly to adapt.

I now have goals and things that are crucial for my existance to continue with a roof over my head, gas in my car, food for my kitty, and food for me. As well as maintaining my sanity and keeping a clear mind.

I HAVE to find a stable and permanent place to live. I HAVE to keep my job. I HAVE to work my ass off to not fail school like I've knowingly failed my other attempts at things in life. I HAVE to take care of myself and do what's best for ME and well.. keroppi cuz he's a big part of my life as well.

So. At this point. Other than my time-limited friendship.. I offer you a look into the journey that has begun of me forming a stable and secure life for myself.

Jesus christ.. I've never been more scared of anything in my life. There is no going back and there is no excuses to be lazy. The only person who can do this is me.

:: takes off shoes and socks ::

Prepare the threshold. I'm ready to start walking.

Comments

[27outs.livejournal.com]

Good luck. I know you can do it. the hardest thing is time management, which menas a lot of stuff you want to do has to fall to what you have to do. It sucks, but it's better in the long run.

feel like grabbing some food tonight after class? I have to go to the gym for a quick 20 minutes or so, but then I am free. I have a test tonight, so maybe I will get out earlier. or maybe I'll be stuck until the end. not sure yet.

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

Food sounds dope :) Meet me at the top o the stairs?

[27outs.livejournal.com]

yeah, you may have to hang out at 24 hour fitness for like20-25 minutes. and then I'm gonna be all sweaty and stuff, but yeah sounds like a plan. I have to do it before I eat, not after.

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

That's not a problem.. I just do some homework while I Wait :) I may be a few minutes late cuz I'm seeing smokey joe's cafe and it ends at 10pm so if I'm not there right away don't leave :)

[27outs.livejournal.com]

I will see you there at 10 - if i get out a t say 9, i'll go to the gym first, but I will be there at 10 either way

[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

ok works fer me

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[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

Is it possible for you to bring your mythology book tonight instead of saturday? That would be uber helpful... if not that's cool too

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[27outs.livejournal.com]

yeah, I can do that.

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[sproutchk.livejournal.com]

YAYYYYY! :) hehe.. thanks!