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doot doo dee doo...

So the movers should be here any minute.. so while I'm waiting...

I got my hair done on Saturday:

Met a really hot ladyperson.

We hit it off. She's wicked awesome.

British too! :)

Here's the catch....

She's moving back to Ohio in about a month!!

ARG!

Way does my timing ALWAYS have to suck?!

OH well.

This just has to be the best dang month of hanging out with a hot chick that digs me then. ( She's gonna visit me at work tomorrow :) Awww )

Crazy thing is, until I move on Monday, she literally lives 5 streets away from me.

Haha :) And she totally forgot I was moving into my own place on Monday and totally offered me a month at her place until she moves to get away from my roommates :)

Totally sweet but I had to deline.

Ah well.

Guess I'll just make the best of it :)

Geek.

So.... when my laptop starts up.. it plays the Transformers transforming noise.

I so rock sometimes. :)

Ha.

So I think the next time anyone has the chance... thank your local tech support person.

I just spent an hour and a half on the phone with Alienware Tech Support. ( First off, god bless remote desktop.. awesome stuff. )

My computer is all fixed. No more icky display issues. Found out that I got sent a dummy hard drive thing so if I choose to take my optical drive out ( I have a smart bay where I can swap out devices any time I need to) and want to just keep a spacer there, I have one. I guess it was sent by accident but no worries.

So now that I'm an hour late for class and still in my pj's I think it's safe to say I can take my time getting ready.

Stayed at school til 4am last night and still didn't finish all my work. Ug.

Alright.

Off to start my day.

hm.

I'd just like to say...I've been feeling very alone these days.

I feel like the triumphs, sadness, questions, problems, etc....I feel like these things just sort of get shot out into a general void of cyberspace and livejournal.

I don't really feel like I have a lot of people to talk to lately.

And less people to spend any time with.

:(

mrow. :(

Hahaha :)

I'm the coolest girl in my school with the new rig....

I am having one problem with it though and I think it may be a Vista related issue.

When my computer goes into " sleep " mode. When I open the lid back up the computer comes back to life. Well... everything but the stupid display does.

So I don't know what the heck that's all about so I'm going to do a little research and if other people are having that problem and I may need to call support also.

Ug. Lame.

p.s.

I've been having issues because my laptop doesn't fit in any of my bags.

So I bought a sweet laptop bag online last night.

www.etsy.com everyone should check out this site! It has so much awesome stuff on it.

Here's the bag I got:

http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=10470149

with this fabric:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/8246113@N06/2344902268/in/set-72157604155284498/

Awwww yeah :)

Whoa....

Just booked the movers for monday.

Check for deposit, first month's rent and credit check has cleared.

Probably getting my key either today or tomorrow.

Jeez.

This is actually happening.

I will have my own place!

YAYYYYYY!!!

/awe

Woot!

Laptop is in my possession!!!!

It's fuckin' sexy! Like... sports car sexy.

I want to have its babies. :)

Also, first half of my allowance check came in today!

Second half should be in tomorrow or something.

YAY!!

Finally!

Hi.

I'm alive.

Stupidly busy.

Have finished work to show.

Will post more in depth soon.

I have a (at least)60+ hour week ahead of me with work/school.

Blah.

Hm..

Stayed at my uncle's last night in Pacifica.

Hanging out in PJ's.
Ocean View.
Watching The Holiday ( jude law... mmmmm...).
And not having to work til 3:30.

Doesn't suck.

My laptop is due to ship this week.

My check is scheduled to be picked up on Weds.
Tips Tuesday.
Payday Friday.

Things are ok for now.

Here's to hoping no wrenches in the cogs anytime soon.

Wootness....

My living allowance check is going to be avail. for pickup on weds.

My laptop is due to ship on either Monday or Tuesday.

Learning neat stuff at school. Photoshop especially.

Doing a really awesome pod cast on Irish Step Dancing in the Bay Area. Get to go to the Starry Plough and take lessons and I get to hang out with Siamsa le Cheile.

Moving soon. Soooo soon. Sigh.. That's the best part of all. Having my own place. For once. I can't wait. :)

Doing well at work.

We'll see how it all goes. :)

Happenins...

Ok.... so on a whiney note. No sympathy needed. No one posted a comment on that "blog" meme that's going around which makes me kinda feel like either people don't really read my lj much these days or that I talk to much about well... Everything.

either way. All well. It's just a meme.

Moving on.

I got approved for one of 2 living allowance loans that I'll be getting this year.

In the next 2-3 weeks I will be:

Moving into my own place.
Paying my roommates back.
Paying Loren back.
Paying back the last couple hundred bucks to Mike's folks.
Paying the last couple hundred dollar payment to an old landlord.
Paying off a portion of my laptop.
Paying my grandma some money.
Taking a few very awesome and deserving people out to dinner or some event to show my appreciation to them.
Buying some new clothes.
Registering my car.
Paying parking tickets.
And being very very relieved.

Sigh.

Finally.

My own place. Mine. Me.

I'm still kind of in shock about it.

I'm still going to be working too so I don't have to use all of my money up right away. And I have another loan in the reserves in case I need to recharge my funds.

Yay. :)

Meme-age..

I'll post something more meaningful later... but until then...

Stolen from a bunch.

Everyone has things they blog about. Everyone has things they don't blog about.

Challenge me out of my comfort zone by telling me something I don't blog about, but you'd like to hear about from my POV, and I'll write a post about it.

Ask for anything: latest movie watched, last book read, political leanings, thoughts on religion, favorite type of underwear, etc. Alternatively, you can ask me a question, any question and I will answer it.

I'm not goin to screen or anything.

Just post a comment and we'll take it from there.

Woot!

Happy Birthday,

palecur!!!

Woot!

Happy Birthday,

aboutagirl777!!!!

Meh.. just postin' cuz I can.

My hand is doing... better. Doesn't hurt. I've been left with 2 icky looking burn marks though. On my first finger and my middle finger. Awesome. Cuz I really needed to look more badass. LOOK AT MY BURN MARKS!! RAWRRRRRRR!! :: starts harley.. blah blah blah.. leather... sunset... hot babes... ::

I had a lovely time with

britgeekgrrl last night. Had some girly time and I gave the idol of the CO'J some tea. Because hey... tea solves all problems. Right? :)

I managed to get home in time to: mutter something about being busy as all hell for the next few days to my roomies, suppress the urge to not strangle my roommate after she bragged about how much she gets to sleep in today and saturday while I work, say goodnight while chanting angry things about what a lazy blob of flesh my roommates are in my head, feed my rat, and get a decent amount of sleep.

Whew. All of that took like... 5 minutes :) haha :)

My laptop... sadly.. is delayed about 3 weeks out. Bitches. So I guess I'm not the only one in the world who wants to own the MOST AWESOME LAPTOP EVARRRRRRRRRR!!! :: thunderthunderlightingpeoplebowing:: and they have to wait on a part that was back ordered. It's due to be delivered to them on Monday the 10th. Then the rep said it will take about 5-6 days to build the machine of awesomeness. :: awe :: And then it will ship and take god knows how many days to ship. So yah. I'm saying 3 weeks. Grrrr...

Innnnn other news.

I'm learning Photoshop! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! I cannot even TELL YOU how excited this makes me.. Finally... FINALLY I get to learn how to do even MORE awesome shit on the computer. My PC has Photoshop CS3 on it so yah... I can practice and transfer the program to my laptop when it comes in depending on what my laptop has. ( Don't remember. ) I love however... that our lecture was like... Ok.. Here's 30 mins on how to do some shit in photoshop. Now.. GO MAKE SOME STUFF!! GO! BE GONE!! GO GO GO!! CREATE!!!

:: stunned silence from class ::

Um.... k? Look! I made some really artsy fartsy collage ( yay layers! ) and um... a mock-up of a geeky website. YAYYYYYYYYY!! :: clapclapclap ::

so yah. Those were our assignments. I swear to you. A collage that had to have 5 layers. And a website that had to have 5 layers. The website didn't have to actually work. It just had to LOOK like a website. Um.

Here's me:

:: clicky clicky :: :: copy pastey :: :: hot key hot key hot key ::

15 mins later.

so.... uh. I'm done. Can I go now? :)

Oh... and uh.... I finished my homework that's due 2 days from now.

I can go? SWEET!!!

So yes. Good times. I am super excited though.

And tonight! I start my acting classes! YAYYYYYY!!!

So I'm gonna go eat some girl scout cookies cuz I don't want to drive home, drive back, and sit in traffic and hey.. peanut butter has protein in it.. even if it is a little bit.

And watch a movie in the library.

Peace out ya'll.

....

Well fuck.

Today can go fuck itself right up the a-hole.

" Tomorrow never comes until it's too late.. "

Also.

On a slightly less dramatic note.

The screening for my movie is going to be this Friday.

That's Feb. 29th at 7pm at Ex'Pression College in Emeryville, CA. Specifically in Mayer Hall.

If anyone would like to attend, please let me know.

I'd REALLY like it if people attended.

My school is cool and would love to show it to people.

So yah..

Good times. :)

Oh and

dancingshaman is in it as well as Dave.

Selling myself.

I go to a school that is competitive by nature. Lately, I've taken on this persona where, much like everyone at school, I feel this constant need to one up.

I find myself doing it with friends and getting reminded that I don't need to sell myself all the time.

I guess. Stupidly enough, I also have that habit from past relationships and not feeling like my qualities were appreciated or even noticed most of the time.

And yet, on a deeper level. If I really think about it, I think that I do it almost to convince myself too.

I have little faith in my abilities. Especially when it comes to this school. I'm surround by talent and greatness and have a hard time finding anything nearly as cool to compete with.

I'm feeling very closed off and reclusive. I'm angry about things and angry about my situation. I HATE that even as I'm sitting here, I'm wondering whether or not, when I go home, if I'm going to be locked out. :(

I feel invisible. I'm constantly screaming within myself... " Look at me! Look how awesome I am! I'm a geek! Look at all the cool shit I'm into that most girls aren't! I play video games! I like cars! I think computers are sexy! I don't look horrible in a dress! " ARG!

Without sounding egotistical... I ask. I'm fucking awesome. I'm a goddamn badass. Who wouldn't want me?

But you know what? That question gets answered every day.

And that's suck part.

That constant reminder of where you stand.

I'm fucking lonely.

Always. Fucking. Lonely.

I don't NEED someone to be happy. I know that. I don't NEED another person to feel good about myself.

But I do want someone. And I'd like to have someone that I feel like tries at least as hard as I do in my pursuit of them to pursue me.

I don't want pity.

I just want to say what I have to say and go back to what I was doing.

It's just really nice to feel wanted and to not feel like you always have to compete or wait or struggle or whatever the case may be.

Maybe I'm just still bitter from Valentine's Day.

Fuckit.

I give up.

Whatever is going to happen is going to happen. Right?