I don't know how to label pain.

It's over.

Loren and Mariese are together.

I really just want to be alone for a while. I appreciate any sympathy given in advance and I apologize if I disappear for a while or don't talk to anyone.

The hardest part..... is having the one person who hurt you the most tell you they don't want you to go home.

I had to wait til he was asleep.

He wanted me to stay because he was worried about me driving home. I don't think he understood how much it was tearing me apart to lay there next to him while he slept knowing that it was the last time.

I told him I couldn't see him ever again. He told me he wasn't going to let me leave his life and walk away entirely. I'm too good of a friend.

I told him I didn't know if I still be his friend and that if things changed I'd let him know.

I feel like such a fool.