A cry for help....
Hey. So I guess I'm moving tomorrow. I need help. Can anyone help me move? It's not really moving so much as just putting things in my storage unit. My grandma is willing to pay whoever helps me for their time, gas, whatever.... I'd really appreciate it... I try not to ask too much of people but this time.. I really really need help. So please let me know via e-mail or responding to this post ASAP.... I gotta start taking my comp down late tonight so I need to know... and I'm gonna be off work tomorrow at 9am. and my storage place closes at 5pm... so it's gotta be done between those times... and i just can't do it alone... that and I also have no truck. So if you have some sort of a truck type thing you could bring.. that would be like the greatest... I really appreciate anyone who takes the time out to help me.... thanks everyone...
Jessica....
the rest of my post for today:
Last night.. I had a dream about my father. He was alive.. and happy. He died in my dream. Now, what makes this dream so real is the fact that just like the real thing I never got time to mourn his death. In my dream he's there and the next minute he's gone. And I can't mourn because my roommate is there and she's yelling at me to hurry. That's all she's doing is saying to hurry up and she's rushing me over and over. I don't know how much longer I can deal with this. Do I take everyone's advice and confront my roommates about stopping pressuring me to move out because my rent is paid up to the first anyway.. so they don't have the right or do I just be quiet and let them bully me? Right now... I'm in a weakened state. Very little food, very little sleep, and the stopping of my medication cold turkey has made me a very small person right now. I even had to leave work early today because the zaps ( it's a thing where whenever you look at something it feels like you're getting zapped in your eyes with electricity ) and my feeling like I'm gonna throw up were just too much for me to handle... and I did actually throw up. It was awful... So. I guess with that in mind... I'm out tomorrow. I'm sorry for letting everyone down... do you forgive me?
Jessica....
the rest of my post for today:
Last night.. I had a dream about my father. He was alive.. and happy. He died in my dream. Now, what makes this dream so real is the fact that just like the real thing I never got time to mourn his death. In my dream he's there and the next minute he's gone. And I can't mourn because my roommate is there and she's yelling at me to hurry. That's all she's doing is saying to hurry up and she's rushing me over and over. I don't know how much longer I can deal with this. Do I take everyone's advice and confront my roommates about stopping pressuring me to move out because my rent is paid up to the first anyway.. so they don't have the right or do I just be quiet and let them bully me? Right now... I'm in a weakened state. Very little food, very little sleep, and the stopping of my medication cold turkey has made me a very small person right now. I even had to leave work early today because the zaps ( it's a thing where whenever you look at something it feels like you're getting zapped in your eyes with electricity ) and my feeling like I'm gonna throw up were just too much for me to handle... and I did actually throw up. It was awful... So. I guess with that in mind... I'm out tomorrow. I'm sorry for letting everyone down... do you forgive me?