The Diagnosis

Well, I finally went to my psychiatrist....and basically I was right... agoraphobia and anxiety disorder with panic attacks... so what does that mean for me? I'm prolly gonna be on meds for the next 3-5 years and the first bit of the cocktail is paxil mixed with a little zanex... ooo yay :) but if that's what I gotta do to stop this madness then that's what I gotta do.... So I hope every one is doing well... I hope everyone is keeping sane.... Ya know... I absolutely have given up on my job too.... like... at this point ( i know this sounds terrible and really really selfish and I do feel bad about it.. ) I could really give a crap if I lose my job or not.. I don't really ever wanna go back there... but I don't really have a choice I guess... So I'll start taking my medication and maybe that feeling will change... so it's off for another day of sitting on the sofa with allen ;)

See ya'll later!!